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Beavisandbutthead

Beavisandbutthead

Student
Jun 12, 2024
157
I'm am astonished with how everything can change in 1 day. I was happy yesterday and now I have decided to prepare for ctb. I thank everyone for their support. The fact that I had 0 relationships will haunt me. Goodbye
 
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karakoltriste

karakoltriste

I hate psychiatry
Apr 30, 2025
259
I'm am astonished with how everything can change in 1 day. I was happy yesterday and now I have decided to prepare for ctb. I thank everyone for their support. The fact that I had 0 relationships will haunt me. Goodbye
im sorry you're suffering

peace ❤️‍🩹
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,260
send you love ❤️
 
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Dot

Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
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Tbf if ur emotns hve changd s/ mch in 24 hrs thn persnlly thnk = wld b wrth w8tng a fw dys in cse u chnge ur mnd agn
 
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Beavisandbutthead

Beavisandbutthead

Student
Jun 12, 2024
157
Tbf if ur emotns hve changd s/ mch in 24 hrs thn persnlly thnk = wld b wrth w8tng a fw dys in cse u chnge ur mnd agn
I feel like doing it before I change my mind
 
getoutgirl

getoutgirl

got out the site <3
Mar 17, 2025
558
I feel like doing it before I change my mind
Hi, that sounds a lot like impulse, which imo is best to avoid.

I also went through bursts of despair then hope then despair then hope in a matter of days. Like literally just waking up like that or mid day. And I know in those bad moments it presents itself as so urgent and clear and inevitable, but then comes the next day and I'm rather glad.
If you were happy yesterday, I'd say there's high chances you shouldn't be killing yourself right now and you can be happy soon too. It's just such a short time span and it sounds to me a lot more like a crisis you are having right now, for which I'm sorry, it's awful, but I'd advise you to try to take a walk, listen to music or distract yourself however you find ways to and may work.
I can only recommend you that, I know those days well.
lots of hugs regardless <3
 
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Beavisandbutthead

Beavisandbutthead

Student
Jun 12, 2024
157
Hi, that sounds a lot like impulse, which imo is best to avoid.

I also went through bursts of despair then hope then despair then hope in a matter of days. Like literally just waking up like that or mid day. And I know in those bad moments it presents itself as so urgent and clear and inevitable, but then comes the next day and I'm rather glad.
If you were happy yesterday, I'd say there's high chances you shouldn't be killing yourself right now and you can be happy soon too. It's just such a short time span and it sounds to me a lot more like a crisis you are having right now, for which I'm sorry, it's awful, but I'd advise you to try to take a walk, listen to music or distract yourself however you find ways to and may work.
I can only recommend you that, I know those days well.
lots of hugs regardless <3
I am depressed since 12 years. It seemed to have gotten but I have fallen on the same hole once again
 
Beavisandbutthead

Beavisandbutthead

Student
Jun 12, 2024
157
I'm am astonished with how everything can change in 1 day. I was happy yesterday and now I have decided to prepare for ctb. I thank everyone for their support. The fact that I had 0 relationships will haunt me. Goodbye
It's alright guys. I'm better now. Thanks
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
801
All the best to you </3
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
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Hope you are still having a better day? Sending hugs your way.
 
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