Ctb tomorrow

[hopelessness009]

Hii guys.

I have now just booked an hotel room for tomorrow till wednesday morning. I'm gonna attempt tomorrow with partial hanging. Hopefully i will succeed. Im feeling a bit nervous right now. I will honestly feel a bit emberrassed if i dont succedd now since im posting this online. I will make an update tomorrow when im in my hotel room. I also will buy some zyrtec tomorrow since i have used it before and it'll make me a bit tired so i hope it will help relax me a bit.

 

[nicotine_goblin]

Hello, good luck friend. And don't worry if it doesn't work out, no shame in that

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck with your plans, I hope you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[Dot]

Hii guys.

I have now just booked an hotel room for tomorrow till wednesday morning. I'm gonna attempt tomorrow with partial hanging. Hopefully i will succeed. Im feeling a bit nervous right now. I will honestly feel a bit emberrassed if i dont succedd now since im posting this online. I will make an update tomorrow when im in my hotel room. I also will buy some zyrtec tomorrow since i have used it before and it'll make me a bit tired so i hope it will help relax me a bit.

Wld u lke 2 tlk 2 n.e1 whle u r hre

 

[リンさん]

There's absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about, and please don't feel pressured to go through with it only because you posted it online. I'm confident that everyone here is extremely sympathetic and will not judge you. Whatever you decide will be best for you, I wish you luck and peace.

 

[アホペンギン]

Good luck, I hope you have a smooth transition and no unnecessary suffering during the process. Best wishes!

Also, if you haven't heard of it yet then you should use some socks and put them in between the rope your neck to apply more pressure to your carotid arteries. If you already know about this then ignore it.

There's absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about, and please don't feel pressured to go through with it only because you posted it online. I'm confident that everyone here is extremely sympathetic and will not judge you. Whatever you decide will be best for you, I wish you luck and peace.

This is true, no one here is judgemental so it is never a bad thing to be ashamed of when backing out of a plan.

Anyways, @hopelessness009 , best wishes!

 

[hopelessness009]

There's absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about, and please don't feel pressured to go through with it only because you posted it online. I'm confident that everyone here is extremely sympathetic and will not judge you. Whatever you decide will be best for you, I wish you luck and peace.

Thank you xx im feeling pretty calm about it. But if i fail this then i have no other methods to try. Im so scared of pain so i know i couldnt do anything too painful.

Good luck, I hope you have a smooth transition and no unnecessary suffering during the process. Best wishes!

Also, if you haven't heard of it yet then you should use some socks and put them in between the rope your neck to apply more pressure to your carotid arteries. If you already know about this then ignore it.

This is true, no one here is judgemental so it is never a bad thing to be ashamed of when backing out of a plan.

Anyways, @hopelessness009 , best wishes!

Yes. I tried the sock method a little. But since im at home i didnt try properly cus i didnt wanna accidentally pass out. So im gonna try again at a hotel room

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I hope whatever decision you ultimately make gets you to the peace you deserve.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you make the right decision for you. I wish you all the best, I hope you find peace and good luck!

Don't pressure yourself now just because you postet it here. If you don't succeed that's nothing to be emberrassed.

 

[Unattainable666]

It breaks my heart when I read these types of posts. This world is so unforgiving. I agree with the others - if you change your mind there is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. If you need to talk to anyone I'm here for you.

 

[hopelessness009]

I will be leaving my room a complete depression mess. I cant clean it. And i dont wanna wait for it to be clean. So sadly my family will have to deal with it all cus i just cant...

 

[HerculePoirot]

You may want to go for full suspension instead of partial, if it's technically feasible. Your survival instinct would be overcome more easily, the pressure on your carotid arteries would be higher, the loss of consciousness (probably death as well) would be faster.
My best wishes.

 

[AnonGermany]

Sending inner peace, much love and energy in your direction.

Never feel bad if you change your mind. It is, how it is. Sometimes when we are at our lowest mental points and face a huge challenge like CTB, we find another little spark that lets us keep trying.

All the best to you and may you find what you are looking for, no matter what you decide to end up doing or not doing in that situation.

 

[museumofthunder]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. You don't deserve it. But I want to tell you that if you have even an ounce of doubt in your mind about what to do, don't do it. You said you're nervous, and trust me, you don't want to go like that. Having gone through something similar, I regret not having taken the time to think about it and take care of myself. But in this moment, you have time. If you need someone to talk to, I'm open to it, even if it's just a reply to this. I hope you're ok.

 

[jordan6243]

As said before, don't feel pressured to go through with this if you aren't ready. With that said, I wish you luck and I want you to know we're here for you before the end.

 

[suicidestyle]

I wish you well, I hope you find your peace. ily man.

 

[hopelessness009]

is there a high chance the police will give my parents my phone back? I couldnt transfer photos to my old iphone because i have a samsung now.

 

[SVEN]

Personal effects do usually get passed on to the next of kin, in the UK anyway.

 

[hopelessness009]

Personal effects do usually get passed on to the next of kin, in the UK anyway.

Oh okay. Im in norway so i think they will. Doesnt make sense to keep it either

 

[draekmir]

Wishing you peace my friend

 

[PracheenKaal_00!]

Hii guys.

I have now just booked an hotel room for tomorrow till wednesday morning. I'm gonna attempt tomorrow with partial hanging. Hopefully i will succeed. Im feeling a bit nervous right now. I will honestly feel a bit emberrassed if i dont succedd now since im posting this online. I will make an update tomorrow when im in my hotel room. I also will buy some zyrtec tomorrow since i have used it before and it'll make me a bit tired so i hope it will help relax me a bit.

Hope you find the peace that you need.
Wishing you a smooth transition.

 

[hopelessness009]

So im at my hotel room now. I brought my door hanger that u use to hold jackets. If i use the door. I cang lock it though. Do u think if i get unconcious i might open the door?? I dont think it would matter though ? I added a pic of my set up. Anyways im gonna relax a little eat some and then do it

 

[HerculePoirot]

Please check the upper knot. Seems fragile.

 

[hopelessness009]

Please check the upper knot. Seems fragile.

I tied it 2 times

 

[HerculePoirot]

I tied it 2 times

Okay. Did you check its sturdiness with your full bodyweight before doing it for real?

 

[hopelessness009]

Okay. Did you check its sturdiness with your full bodyweight before doing it for real?

Yes. I pulled it tight. Many times.im also doing a partial and not a full suspension

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

Seems good setup. What's the technique you're e using just dropping your weight into the noose quickly? and also where would you position the noose, near the top? Anyways,>best of luck.

 

[HerculePoirot]

My best wishes.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best with your plan. I hope you find peace, safe travels and good luck!

 

[hopelessness009]

Seems good setup. What's the technique you're e using just dropping your weight into the noose quickly? and also where would you position the noose, near the top? Anyways,>best of luck.

Im going to just sit down. Not all the way though. Just so its thight enough. Im gonna place the noose close to the base of my neck - it'll be a little above the base of my neck. And i will use socks that i fold and place where my carotid arteries are on both sides. It'll help me breathe a bit more if i cant breathe then idk how i will go through. But i did test a bit at home and then i could breathe but it was a bit shallow