Ctb this weekend, but…..

[farakini]

I'm still sticking to my plan to ctb, but I just feel so done with life and emotionally drained right now….I feel like I'm walking with metal weights….i just hope I make through the next few days until my date of departure.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it's hard to carry on enduring this existence when you just want everything to end. It really is all so tiring and it does sound so ideal to finally leave this life behind.
I wish you freedom from all suffering.

 

[universe]

Suicidal thoughts are a great mental pain and eventually become a real physical sensation. I know only too well this feeling that we could fly away and go to heaven if our legs did not hold us back. Walk slowly because we feel exhausted, our limbs numb with sadness. Feeling that we could fly away at the slightest gust of wind, so weakened are we. Not even feeling our breath anymore, as if we had already left and were no longer part of the world of the living.

I hope you get better, I send you all my prayers and thoughts.