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[XXXTENTACION]

Fellow SS members I'm extremely stuck and need help!

I know it's against the rules to promote someone catching the bus but I'm sitting here with all my equipment really (exit bag, gas, regulator and such) and a shit ton of sleeping tablets and 2 bottles of codeine promethazine. I'm not sure what is stopping me. I have a work hearing tomorrow morning that I just don't want to face but above all that I have little to no joy left in life..financially I'm well off, decent job, own a house and car but nothing left in life to look forward to, I feel like I've done it all. I don't want kids and am unable to find a partner due to a lack of interest in day to day mundane shit. I really want the courage to just go now.

 

[flightless bird]

don't do it. please. just have a drink, and go to sleep.

you're not ready. when you are, you'll know, because you won't be looking for courage then.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Mm, btw, what type of gas is it?

 

[wyo777]

don't do it. please. just have a drink, and go to sleep.

you're not ready. when you are, you'll know, because you won't be looking for courage then.

Totally agree!!!!!!!

Fellow SS members I'm extremely stuck and need help!

I know it's against the rules to promote someone catching the bus but I'm sitting here with all my equipment really (exit bag, gas, regulator and such) and a shit ton of sleeping tablets and 2 bottles of codeine promethazine. I'm not sure what is stopping me. I have a work hearing tomorrow morning that I just don't want to face but above all that I have little to no joy left in life..financially I'm well off, decent job, own a house and car but nothing left in life to look forward to, I feel like I've done it all. I don't want kids and am unable to find a partner due to a lack of interest in day to day mundane shit. I really want the courage to just go now.

No, you are not ready!!!! Don't do that. I know we shouldn't say it and i understand and respect whatever path people choose, but it's not your time. I know it cause i was at the same point, sitting and starring at N bottles. If you are afraid, that means it is not your time!!!! Life is very tricky, i got a feeling that you will find a purpose in your life sooner then You are expecting. Please...no, it is not Your time.

 

[spero_meliora]

Reiterating what everyone else has said - if you need this type of courage, there's a reason you're holding back. Remember, the bus can make many stops and come along at any day, it doesn't need to be this particular one. There are always other days, and there's no shame in postponing or having second thoughts.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Sending love and hugs your way.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

I think the reason I'm looking for the courage and it not being "my time to go" is due to the fact that I had a failed attempted 3 years ago which has made me very apprehensive about it not working rather than not being ready.
Id say I've been ready for the last 3 years but it is just finding that right time, which feels like right now.

Mm, btw, what type of gas is it?

Pure Argon
I truly appreciate all of your words of support, I really do x
I truly appreciate all of your words of support, I really do x

 

[EmptyBottle]

I wondered, how expensive is argon (not going to buy, but am curious)

 

[XXXTENTACION]

I paid more than I should have if I shopped around but you can't take money with you so what the hell right.
10 litre bottle deposit was £55
10 litre of Pure Argon was £77
Regulator was £50

 

[EmptyBottle]

^.^ tks

I paid more than I should have if I shopped around but you can't take money with you so what the hell right.
10 litre bottle deposit was £55
10 litre of Pure Argon was £77
Regulator was £50

In my quick search, size C cylinder Rent free costs £86 when converted to gbp, tho haven't searched for regulator

 

[XXXTENTACION]

10 litres at 200 bar is 2,000 litres which is more than enough to get the job done if you're using a flow rate of 15lpm. Better to be safe than sorry though right x

 

[EmptyBottle]

10 litres at 200 bar is 2,000 litres which is more than enough to get the job done if you're using a flow rate of 15lpm. Better to be safe than sorry though right x

More than enough to flood a vehicle lol, assuming vehicle is under 3000 liters (so O2 is 1/3 atmosphere or less)

 

[bambibambam]

please don't, you're just feeling anxious right now. don't do anything impulsive, just take some deep breaths. sending love and hugs x

 

[EmptyBottle]

please don't, you're just feeling anxious right now. don't do anything impulsive, just take some deep breaths. sending love and hugs x

^v^
I also agree, impulsive decisions can be dangerous or irreversible. And if cross species reincarnation is real, who wants to reincarnate as an insect in or near a car.
And believe it or not, I DREAMT of this very thread (on profile)