CTB Plans

[Foreverever]

Hello. I created my account here in 2020, lurked the forums briefly, and then stopped. Now after five years, I'm back.

During all of this time, I never stopped thinking about CTB, but it became more manageable. Now I am back because I feel, despite how stupid it may sound, it is my destiny. I am destined to CTB.

After having considered all the possible options, I keep coming back to drowning as my method of preference, as it seems a relatively peaceful method (though I am sure that when I am drowning, I will be thinking otherwise -- but it is still much better than a method like hanging, and I live in a country which has very few guns, so that option is off the table). I am aware that survival instinct is a thing, but I feel that if I were to do this properly, it could work. The main thing is that it needs to be done in a way where I can't back out once I've started. My plan is to tie myself to a weight, and submerge myself in a body of water large enough so that I can drown. As long as the weight is heavy enough and the tie cannot be broken, I think this method will work.

Let me know your thoughts. I would be interested in reading any feedback. As I've stated previously, I know this may not be the best method and people will try to talk me out of it as a viable method, but I believe it's the best method available to me.

 

[FrustratedGirl]

Ooof,
I won't try talking you out of it, but you wanted to hear an opinion: I think it's a very painful method. Yes hanging (without breaking the neck) is also very painful (I don't think they differ much). I think, your weight needs to be really heavy and very well tied to you. I am pretty sure, it won't be a peaceful death and I think you shouldn't convince yourself otherwise. Of course you can choose this method, but don't think it's peaceful or not a fight at the end…
It's a shame that your brain or your life has brought you to this conclusion. I hope, you find your way. Whether it's this method, another method or that you change your mind. <3

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[Foreverever]

Ooof,
I won't try talking you out of it, but you wanted to hear an opinion: I think it's a very painful method. Yes hanging (without breaking the neck) is also very painful (I don't think they differ much). I think, your weight needs to be really heavy and very well tied to you. I am pretty sure, it won't be a peaceful death and I think you shouldn't convince yourself otherwise. Of course you can choose this method, but don't think it's peaceful or not a fight at the end…
It's a shame that your brain or your life has brought you to this conclusion. I hope, you find your way. Whether it's this method, another method or that you change your mind. <3

Yes, I am fully aware it won't be peaceful, that's why I said "relatively peaceful", compared to worse methods. The way I think about it is regardless of however painful it may be, it will only be a few minutes of pain at most. Despite however painful it may be and however long it may seem in the moment, it's only a few minutes of suffering. But maybe I'm just naive.