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Exhausted546

Mage
Dec 1, 2025
531
My birthday is right around the corner. I feel like there's no better day to ctb. The only thing that prevents me from doing is the sibling that reached out to me cause he was worried I had caught the bus and didn't sleep all night as he couldn't reach me (I headed to the woods with my rope,if they hadn't been flooded I'd have died, crazy sixth sense on his part)

Imagining him being hurt really hurts me. In any case whether I ctb or not,I have to keep living like I won't do it. But yeah,it'd be the ideal day
 
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ilovenewyork

Specialist
Nov 16, 2025
305
I don't see why your birthday is better than any other day. Perhaps you can change how you're living instead of ctb
 
anchorsaweigh06

anchorsaweigh06

dying is easy, living is harder.
May 21, 2026
9
I'm in a very similar boat to you, OP. Planning on going out later this summer, but I'll also be leaving behind a sibling. Wishing you all the best.
 
quickandeasy

quickandeasy

Member
Apr 19, 2026
30
There's nothing to it besides the fact that it feels poetic. If you could keep living for a little bit more, try. Maybe life has a different turn just around the corner.
 
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Exhausted546

Mage
Dec 1, 2025
531
I'm in a very similar boat to you, OP. Planning on going out later this summer, but I'll also be leaving behind a sibling. Wishing you all the best.
Ill be leaving behind 3 older siblings personally.
 
passthisnote

passthisnote

chronically online
May 6, 2026
91
My birthday is right around the corner. I feel like there's no better day to ctb. The only thing that prevents me from doing is the sibling that reached out to me cause he was worried I had caught the bus and didn't sleep all night as he couldn't reach me (I headed to the woods with my rope,if they hadn't been flooded I'd have died, crazy sixth sense on his part)

Imagining him being hurt really hurts me. In any case whether I ctb or not,I have to keep living like I won't do it. But yeah,it'd be the ideal day
im going to ctb right before my birthday so i can avoid turning 20
 

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