Ctb on birthday

[downndone2]

I think it's pretty safe to say my birthday wish will never come true and the plan I had was for ctb on my birthday 2023 if things weren't better. My birthday is next week and I wish I'd just fall over dead right now.
I have loaded gun and plan to shoot myself outside my house.
I just ruined my life and there's no fixing it. I landed a decent paying job but it won't be enough to touch my massive debt. I'll be working to pay interest, getting no where. Go to work to come home to my shit life...
I just don't want yo live anymore.

 

[Sparr0w]

i wish you luck and peace
and happy (future) birthday! :)

 

[downndone2]

Thank you

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wishing to be gone, it certainly shouldn't be so difficult for us to finally be free from this world, if only we could just choose to never wake then that would be ideal. But I do get that it can be so tiring feeling trapped here, I never want to see another birthday as well.

 

[SilentSadness]

I don't see anything special about birthdays. I would be fine with ctb on my birthday, and if it were possible then I absolutely would. I wish you peace, this world really is rotten.

 

[Yuki K]

I tried ctb last year on my birthday, it failed. I'll ctb way before my birthday this year. Wish you luck

 

[CantWait2D1E]

Best of luck to you. Birthday's suck

If I had gun I wouldn't be here writing this post

Edit: be careful of recoil and flinching. Gun is not a 100% method due to those things

 

[downndone2]

Best of luck to you. Birthday's suck

If I had gun I wouldn't be here writing this post

Edit: be careful of recoil and flinching. Gun is not a 100% method due to those things

Yes, I'm afraid of this for sure. I'm just not sure on another method that is as reliable really

 

[CantWait2D1E]

Very true.

The advice I was told when I was first practicing shooting (for flinching/jerking the gun in anticipation of the shot) is that a gentle, slow squeeze of the trigger is required. It should almost be a surprise when the gun goes off in your hand.

 

[Iva]

Very true.

The advice I was told when I was first practicing shooting (for flinching/jerking the gun in anticipation of the shot) is that a gentle, slow squeeze of the trigger is required. It should almost be a surprise when the gun goes off in your hand.

this is actually really helpful information that I'd never considered.

 

[downndone2]

Very true.

The advice I was told when I was first practicing shooting (for flinching/jerking the gun in anticipation of the shot) is that a gentle, slow squeeze of the trigger is required. It should almost be a surprise when the gun goes off in your hand.

I will keep this in mind. When I go to the range the gun definitely has a kick in my hand, bullet strikes above aim. I plan to shoot in mouth towards spine with slightly elevated angle. Hoping to hit soft palate and get brainstem. It is quite scary and when I do it, it'll likely be a quick decision based on the situation

 

[CantWait2D1E]

this is actually really helpful information that I'd never considered.

Thank you. I was trained by Marines who knew their stuff.

I will keep this in mind. When I go to the range the gun definitely has a kick in my hand, bullet strikes above aim. I plan to shoot in mouth towards spine with slightly elevated angle. Hoping to hit soft palate and get brainstem. It is quite scary and when I do it, it'll likely be a quick decision based on the situation

Everything about that sounds good. The roof of the mouth method is superior because it allows you to hold the gun with two hands much more comfortably.

There was a helpful manual on here tilted "how to shoot yourself in the head" or something. Unfortunately mods deleted the diagram showing the trajectory you should be aiming for. But yeah roof of the mouth holding the firearm at about 45 degree angle is the best chance to sever the brain stem.

 

[stoopid]

Rather happy deathday? I can't Image a better gift than death I think I'll do the same, my birthday is 2 months away. Im not sure. But I totally understand you.

 

[soontobedone]

I believe if I had a gun it would be done. Instead I'm planning SN and hoping for success.

 

[downndone2]

It's either gun or SN. I never wanted to use SN but the gun and my fears using it are crazy.
I feel if I'm even considering SN I better get it quick before it gets harder to obtain
All I know is I can't go on like this anymore

 

[Viranamari]

I certainly thought of dying on my birthday before. Unlike most people, birthdays aren't happy occasions for me and the idea of death on my birthday comforts me. Never again do I wish to have another birthday so I understand where you're coming from, Good luck.

 

[missingpeace]

All the best, I hope for you a swift transition