Ctb is difficult

[healthrecovery]

Damn is not that easy tho bro...
Its easier if you have severe physical pain...or some severe issues
You have to have extreme balls to CTB..even if you like life even a little bit its extremely hard to push through

 

[dyingalone123]

Definitely. I'm hoping a brain aneurysm would just happen to me. Some instant death shit happen to me.

 

[healthrecovery]

You also have family members n shit being sad thats difficult as well

 

[dyingalone123]

You also have family members n shit being sad thats difficult as well

Yeah homie. Given my luck, imma be the last to die. Shit, I tried to drown myself but I couldn't do it in September.

 

[ddd1234]

What method do you use?

 

[healthrecovery]

N

 

[ddd1234]

N

It shouldn't be that difficult. People say that it is the easiest method.

 

[bed]

It shouldn't be that difficult. People say that it is the easiest method.

it is a lot easier said than done, regardless of method. Self-preservation is the number one thing your brain cares about.

 

[ddd1234]

it is a lot easier said than done, regardless of method. Self-preservation is the number one thing your brain cares about.

maybe you are right. Now I am in this state of mind that constantly thinking about ctb. cannot focus on anything else. If I had N it would be easy for me to drink it now, will not hesitate at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course ctb is very difficult. All humans are programmed to survive, even know we want to die. Even people with peaceful methods struggle with the survival instinct. For me there is also the fear of failure. I think we all deserve the option of euthanasia as then that cannot fail. I wish there was an option to fall asleep and never wake again. I know that for me I will only be able to do it when I get extremely desperate.

 

[Cheza_mus]

It wouldn't be difficult for me if I had N

 

[canna2]

Isolate yourself for a long period of time and it's gonna be easy as shit. Trust me.

If I had a gun right now I would blow my brains out in a heartbeat.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

If a bottle of N Was sitting right next to me right now, I think it would still be a challenge…

David Foster Wallace had thst excellent analogy- Of the burning building. That staying alive must be more painful than the thought of jumping out the window. Staying inside the building would feel like burning to death and jumping out the window is the better alternative.

So far, for me, lying on my couch all day reading this forum is miserable but survivable. At some point, the heat will be too much…

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Ctb is the hardest thing someone can do. Calling it the cowards way out is fucking ridiculous. I don't know why society has to shame and insult those who died of suicide. The amount of pain and turmoil someone has to endure to end their own lives is indescribable.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Ctb is the hardest thing someone can do. Calling it the cowards way out is fucking ridiculous. I don't know why society has to shame and insult those who died of suicide. The amount of pain and turmoil someone has to endure to end their own lives is indescribable.

I think "society "is terrified of suicide and has no idea what it is or why people really do it. It's ugly and frightening. And tragic, Especially for those left behind who lose people they love dearly. Hopefully, euthanasia will gain some acceptance as it should. It's crazy that people should be forced to suffer against their will.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I think "society "is terrified of suicide and has no idea what it is or why people really do it. It's ugly and frightening. And tragic, Especially for those left behind who lose people they love dearly. Hopefully, euthanasia will gain some acceptance as it should. It's crazy that people should be forced to suffer against their will.

If easy to access euthanasia was available to the general public, how many people do you think would ctb? Approximately 1 in 50 deaths is due to suicide. I think this number would jump to 1 in 10 deaths. This is just a wild guess and I suppose it is impossible to know what someone is really thinking.

For that very reason I don't think euthanasia will approved for the general public, at least not in our life times. Maybe once AI and automation replaces half of the working population, then maybe society will become more lax about its slaves fleeing the plantation.

 

[okaoki]

i don't fear death but i fear failed attempt , my method are jumping if i fail , i'll end up being disabled and can't attempt again.
euthanasia should be a thing for people like me. i can't find another method other than jumping.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

If easy to access euthanasia was available to the general public, how many people do you think would ctb? Approximately 1 in 50 deaths is due to suicide. I think this number would jump to 1 in 10 deaths. This is just a wild guess and I suppose it is impossible to know what someone is really thinking.

For that very reason I don't think euthanasia will approved for the general public, at least not in our life times. Maybe once AI and automation replaces half of the working population, then maybe society will become more lax about its slaves fleeing the plantation.

1 in 10 seems high but maybe.
We would lose a lot of people in retirement homes who are isolated and miserable.
Prison populations.
Those who attempt suicide… It's some thing like 1 million a year who try in the US alone.
I think it would be millions of people. It would be a shocking number.

I don't think there's any kind of conspiracy to keep workers slaves in their jobs. There's a lot of reasons why euthanasia is not more accessible. Family members and friends are hell-bent on saving their loved ones from death and Will fight tooth and nail to prevent euthanasia from expanding Beyond the terminal ill. On the other hand at this point there's a constant expansion of personal rights and I don't see that rolling back anytime soon. So the right to euthanasia may indeed expand.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

i don't fear death but i fear failed attempt , my method are jumping if i fail , i'll end up being disabled and can't attempt again.
euthanasia should be a thing for people like me. i can't find another method other than jumping.

If you do decide on jumping make sure it is onto a hard surface and at least 10 stories high. Most of the survivor stories I read about is because the person jumped into water or the height was not high enough.

I am scared of heights but always found jumping to be poetic. You are literally letting go and allowing yourself to be at the mercy of an irresistible force (gravity). We spend all our lives struggling and fighting. There is some kind of poetic irony just allowing yourself to let go of it all.

 

[NormaJeane]

Commit suicide is the most difficult thing a person can do, it requires planning, lethal aids and the most difficult thing - to find the courage to die and to overcome the survival instict. The best death is to die with the help of a doctor, but not everyone has that opportunity. I know how to kill myself, but the problem is the surival instinct. I think there are several difficulties with how to find the courage to die: the fear of death, the fear of the dying process, the fear of dying badly, the fear of failure and the survival instinct. The fear of death is possible to do something about through exercises and planning for a long time, but the survival instinct is automatic and harder to do something about.

 

[Wrennie]

If you do decide on jumping make sure it is onto a hard surface and at least 10 stories high. Most of the survivor stories I read about is because the person jumped into water or the height was not high enough.

I am scared of heights but always found jumping to be poetic. You are literally letting go and allowing yourself to be at the mercy of an irresistible force (gravity). We spend all our lives struggling and fighting. There is some kind of poetic irony just allowing yourself to let go of it all.

Ironically, the 'falling' part felt so freeing and peaceful - it was as though my body were completely motionless/suspended in space while the rest of the world moved around me. Thennnn the ground hit me, and the impact was so intense that my nervous-system literally couldn't process it. There was no physical pain - only the sickening crunch of bones and accompanying immense otherworldly regret. (But yes, it wasn't nearly high enough).

 

[Aeathelina]

Yes its hard to take the final leap into the ether knowing that there's no going back, no reset.
Haven been on Death's door a few times from my own hands and accidents when the darkness was closing in on me I was scared to go even though not even a day later all I can think about was dying

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Ironically, the 'falling' part felt so freeing and peaceful - it was as though my body were completely motionless/suspended in space while the rest of the world moved around me. Thennnn the ground hit me, and the impact was so intense that my nervous-system literally couldn't process it. There was no physical pain - only the sickening crunch of bones and accompanying immense otherworldly regret. (But yes, it wasn't nearly high enough).

I am afraid of heights but I always liked those drop from height rollercoasters. The build up and anticipation is the scary part. The actual falling part my mind goes completely blank and I feel at peace. I know it is not the same thing but I always romanticized jumping as a method, even though I could never go through with it.

I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like to survive a jumping attempt. I knew you had medical issues but I didn't know it was a result of a failed attempt. If society was just, euthanasia would be automatically approved for those who botched an attempt.

 

[TheHatedOne]

desperation makes it a little bit easier.

 

[Wrennie]

I am afraid of heights but I always liked those drop from height rollercoasters. The build up and anticipation is the scary part. The actual falling part my mind goes completely blank and I feel at peace. I know it is not the same thing but I always romanticized jumping as a method, even though I could never go through with it.

I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like to survive a jumping attempt. I knew you had medical issues but I didn't know it was a result of a failed attempt. If society was just, euthanasia would be automatically approved for those who botched an attempt.

The most ironic part is that the motor neuron disease wasn't even caused by the fall, it was a complication from a tick-borne illness. I do definitely have injuries from the fall that made me bedridden anyway (not because I couldn't move at the time, but because I was just so unfathomably uncomfortable whenever I did). Now I have to deal with this in addition to that, and then today I developed gastroenteritis from my severe anorexia because my stomach just can't process food anymore.

I agree with you completely that it's inhumane to keep people like me alive when modern medicine refuses to offer any assistance (insurance is literally is letting me be paralyzed from my incurable autoimmune disease, and they won't cover the operation to remove an IM nail from my body even though It's a foreign metal object and my body is starting to reject it.)

Speaking of roller coasters, the most interesting part about "falling" for me was the absence of G-force (or the feeling of your stomach being turned upside-down that one often experiences on amusement park rides). It was just complete stillness. The world around me became a blur, but I didn't feel my own body moving at all.