dewdfish
SN on 03/30/2026
- Nov 30, 2025
- 177
I'm going to finally CTB in a couple of weeks. Carnival will be coming up in my country by the second week of February and I plan on having as much fun as I can in my current state and ending it all for good. I feel ecstatic about it, I genuinely cannot wait to just hit the other side of this dimension, if there's one.
For instance, I'm just getting things ready, I'm only leaving a small note saying goodbye and I that I couldn't be helped even if they tried - they haven't tried in 24 years of my existence so there's that, and that's it. I don't really got friends to send goodbye to or anything like that. I've already rented a place to go through with it, and am just waiting for time to come. I've also already packed everything needed. I've got SN and some of the pills needed but I'm pretty sure I'll go with FHS since it's quicker and once I kick the chair there's no way to back out.
For instance, I'm just getting things ready, I'm only leaving a small note saying goodbye and I that I couldn't be helped even if they tried - they haven't tried in 24 years of my existence so there's that, and that's it. I don't really got friends to send goodbye to or anything like that. I've already rented a place to go through with it, and am just waiting for time to come. I've also already packed everything needed. I've got SN and some of the pills needed but I'm pretty sure I'll go with FHS since it's quicker and once I kick the chair there's no way to back out.
