ctb in the next couple of days

[Andromeda77]

So my SN is due to arrive tonight. Initially, I wasn't going to wait. But I've been under the weather because of my period so it'll have to wait a few days—(actually, this might be the perfect time, these cramps are awful)—but the idea of someone removing my tampon grossed me out, lol. I'm still allowed my dignity in death, right?

My plan is simple. I don't have any meto and don't want the hassle of trying to find some now. I've closed my bank account, and the only cash I have left is like 50 dollars.

I've got a pre roll with my name on it, a small Zofran prescription I have yet to pick up, and Tylenol.

I figured I would drive somewhere at night. Probably my favorite spot over looking the city and do it in my car.

I'm not going to fast, though I'll probably have my last bit of food three hours before. I'm familiar with what fasting does to my body, and 8hr is around the bench mark of when my stomach can get upset when something is introduced. I'm afraid the drink will "shock" my stomach and I'll be more likely to throw up.

I've written my notes and have texts that I have written that I'm going to send, right before I do it. They're going to be out of the ordinary, but I'll be long gone before I think anyone realizes what I meant. I'm also contemplating addressing my notes and sending them off into the mail, or having them on my person.

I think I might send them. If I send them, I can't change my mind. I don't think I will, though.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom you search for, I think that those who are able to access SN in this world where it's becoming more and more difficult to obtain certainly are fortunate.

 

[Vizzy]

So my SN is due to arrive tonight. Initially, I wasn't going to wait. But I've been under the weather because of my period so it'll have to wait a few days—(actually, this might be the perfect time, these cramps are awful)—but the idea of someone removing my tampon grossed me out, lol. I'm still allowed my dignity in death, right?

My plan is simple. I don't have any meto and don't want the hassle of trying to find some now. I've closed my bank account, and the only cash I have left is like 50 dollars.

I've got a pre roll with my name on it, a small Zofran prescription I have yet to pick up, and Tylenol.

I figured I would drive somewhere at night. Probably my favorite spot over looking the city and do it in my car.

I'm not going to fast, though I'll probably have my last bit of food three hours before. I'm familiar with what fasting does to my body, and 8hr is around the bench mark of when my stomach can get upset when something is introduced. I'm afraid the drink will "shock" my stomach and I'll be more likely to throw up.

I've written my notes and have texts that I have written that I'm going to send, right before I do it. They're going to be out of the ordinary, but I'll be long gone before I think anyone realizes what I meant. I'm also contemplating addressing my notes and sending them off into the mail, or having them on my person.

I think I might send them. If I send them, I can't change my mind. I don't think I will, though.

Hope you find peace and everything goes as planned

It is better to mail

 

[90starve]

it sounds like you've made an informed and careful decision - i hope your transition is peaceful <3

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you a safe and peaceful journey! I hope you find peace! Farewell and good luck!