ctb in 50 minutes

[cantthinkofusername]

i don't really know what I'm supposed to feel
i still haven't written a note
im tired

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[ChainedCrow]

Im so sorry it had come to this. I hope whatever happends u will be at peace.
i hope your journey will be peaceful and quick, Much love and good luck

 

[Freedomm]

Have a happy trip

 

[eggsausagerice]

good luck. i hope you find peace

 

[EternalShore]

See ya~ I wish you well and will pray for you~ :)

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Whatever you choose I hope you find what you are seeking for

 

[darksouls]

good luck
I wish you the best
hope you find relief from suffering

 

[cantthinkofusername]

i just have to take 3 or 4 pills i dont know whats stopping me

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

i just have to take 3 or 4 pills i dont know whats stopping me

Thank goodness you're still here. I think maybe it's your SI kicking in. Maybe it's a sign you're not ready.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

Thank goodness you're still here. I think maybe it's your SI kicking in. Maybe it's a sign you're not ready.

i know its the right choice its just scary

 

[33K1LLM3]

Please don't rush a ctb. Take your time and take care ok <3

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

i know its the right choice its just scary

I'm not here to preach pro-life stuff however in my personal opinion people should only CTB if they're truly ready, they shouldn't feel forced to but rather it's their choice. It's your choice but you are so afraid and it just seems like you're not ready. Like that one person said, don't rush a suicide. It's worse that way. You don't want to die afraid.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

its better than the alternative and i wont regret it if i succeed

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

its better than the alternative and i wont regret it if i succeed

There is always a risk of survival, nobody knows if you'll succeed. Do you really want to risk still being alive, OR just keep living because we all get guaranteed death in the end? Suicide is never guaranteed to work although people can try, but it is guaranteed we will all die someday.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

 

[Daphne]

3 or 4 pills? Unless they're cyanide, odds are they won't do much. Read up on the method guides on this site. OD's don't work most of the time.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

ive done my research it wound work
it's just scary
it's just scary

 

[bpdwriter]

ive done my research it wound work
it's just scary
it's just scary

that's the SI kicking in. i think it's the you that knows that this is it and there's no turning back. i'm in the camp that CTB doesn't have to be scary and and a terrifying experience, there's plenty of people here who shared their experiences on how they overcame SI. personally though... you might be mentally ready to ctb, but maybe not ready for the process.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

i just wanna die it's not fair

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

i just have to take 3 or 4 pills i dont know whats stopping me

What are the pills?

 

[enjoytheride]

i just wanna die it's not fair

If you have doubts in your mind or heart about this, then it would be a good idea to postpone. The pain you must be going through must be unbearable. I hope that you can find good reasons to stay and give life another try, or as many tries as possible. If you have the time and will, please have a look at this e-book, as it may help see things differently: https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf

 

[Ambien addict]

i just wanna die it's not fair

I need too, too...what pills? We will let you know if it's a good plan....whatever you chosse...PEACE be with you

 

[butimstillsoblue]

i just have to take 3 or 4 pills i dont know whats stopping me

What are the 3 or 4 pills?

Maybe we can help you decide if this is really a good option. I'm not a pro lifer, but would hate to see you suffer needlessly if these pills aren't going to do what you want them to do.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace. Good luck!

 

[fkyou]

that's the SI kicking in. i think it's the you that knows that this is it and there's no turning back. i'm in the camp that CTB doesn't have to be scary and and a terrifying experience, there's plenty of people here who shared their experiences on how they overcame SI. personally though... you might be mentally ready to ctb, but maybe not ready for the process.

Where to find these posts I struggle with si too

 

[cookiencream]

I'm not here to preach pro-life stuff however in my personal opinion people should only CTB if they're truly ready, they shouldn't feel forced to but rather it's their choice. It's your choice but you are so afraid and it just seems like you're not ready. Like that one person said, don't rush a suicide. It's worse that way. You don't want to die afraid.

I think people may be afraid no matter what unless they're medicated. I mean, has anyone ever made a super duper important life changing decision and NOT been scared. But yeah they should probably think about it more

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

I think people may be afraid no matter what unless they're medicated. I mean, has anyone ever made a super duper important life changing decision and NOT been scared. But yeah they should probably think about it more

True and obviously anyone would be afraid of suicide especially due to SI. But like you said, they should think about it more. I read their post they just don't seem ready. And I think it's important for people to know it's okay if they never end up being ready to CTB. It's not the only option. Just one of many.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

i just dont have time to put it off anymore. i dont wanna live. and i dont wanna die on the other side of the country from my family in a college dorm.

True and obviously anyone would be afraid of suicide especially due to SI. But like you said, they should think about it more. I read their post they just don't seem ready. And I think it's important for people to know it's okay if they never end up being ready to CTB. It's not the only option. Just one of many.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

ill try again tomorow night