Hello
@HallieWong,
This might be a bad question on this forum, but how are you now?
Whoa, an angel. It must be very hard for a person as emotional, kind and delicate as you are to face this cruel world. Thank you for your concern. It makes me sad to see you on this forum. Hope you get well soon and live happily ever after or find eternal peace
Thanks, and yes, facing this cruel world is indeed hard. My response to stresses and strains used to be scrambling to solve problems, but now I just freeze and feeling numb when pressured. It made my life much more comfortable - I no longer have to be terrified by everything, and I grew really thick skin - but as a price, I no longer can deal with pressure effectively.
I simply freeze and can't do anything when stressed.
I don't think happy life is no longer a possibility in my case, but now I don't have any plan to CTB either, and I'm going to kill time until time kills me.
SI is extremely powerful in my case, but a lot of people are trying to overcome it through practice. It gives me new hope - there can be a way out when I really need it.
Please take care of yourself for now