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I want to ctb this month but have been feeling really overwhelmed with guilt over how it is going to impact people around me. I live with my friend who is away for the month on holiday and decided I want to ctb in a hotel so my body isn't just sitting in the apartment for her to find when she comes back. Although then I feel bad for the hotel staff that has to find me but at least I wouldn't be decayed. Does anyone know what happens after? Who would dispose of my body in that case? I have no family and think somehow this could end up being my boyfriend's responsibility but we're doing long distance and I feel terrible that he would have to travel here just to deal with my body. I'm guessing it would be too suspicious to prepay for cremation but I feel really bad that he would have to deal with it. He has a rare period of time off work this summer so I want to do it soon so he has time to recover emotionally before he has to go back to work.

Does anyone have advice on how to mitigate the burden of ctb on others?
 
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I want to ctb this month but have been feeling really overwhelmed with guilt over how it is going to impact people around me. I live with my friend who is away for the month on holiday and decided I want to ctb in a hotel so my body isn't just sitting in the apartment for her to find when she comes back. Although then I feel bad for the hotel staff that has to find me but at least I wouldn't be decayed. Does anyone know what happens after? Who would dispose of my body in that case? I have no family and think somehow this could end up being my boyfriend's responsibility but we're doing long distance and I feel terrible that he would have to travel here just to deal with my body. I'm guessing it would be too suspicious to prepay for cremation but I feel really bad that he would have to deal with it. He has a rare period of time off work this summer so I want to do it soon so he has time to recover emotionally before he has to go back to work.

Does anyone have advice on how to mitigate the burden of ctb on others?
unfortunately it is an awful situation, it WILL affect others no matter what you do, but this is where you have to switch off and do what is right for YOU
 
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