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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
Is anyone committing because they fear growing old and knowing that society will treat you differently once you age, if you don't still look a certain way? I'm just curious because I think it's a really valid fear some people have because that fear if far from irrational due to how our society is structured, especially if you are a woman. If you do fear getting old, are there other reasons as to why like, so you fear you'll end up alone, or have some inherent knowing that you will end up alone and you'd like to not live that way?
 
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yuno

yuno

person
Sep 10, 2022
42
I have always been disgusted with my appearance. If I don't ctb soon enough, I know I'll do it before I can grow into wrinkles. I'm only in my early 20s and I already feel too old now, being a proper adult. I feel like I've squandered my youth by just being miserable and hating myself. I know I would never be able to cope with facing the physical affects of aging, especially when I can't even stand to face myself in the mirror today. My grandmother was old and delusional, and she would always warn me "never get old". I'm taking it to heart.
 
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betternever2havbeen

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,051
Is anyone committing because they fear growing old and knowing that society will treat you differently once you age, if you don't still look a certain way? I'm just curious because I think it's a really valid fear some people have because that fear if far from irrational due to how our society is structured, especially if you are a woman. If you do fear getting old, are there other reasons as to why like, so you fear you'll end up alone, or have some inherent knowing that you will end up alone and you'd like to not live that way?
It's not the only reason but it's a big one-especially since I've never wanted kids and I also come from a very small family to begin with so literally once my mum goes I'll have no close family other than my siblings who I hate. And yeh it sucks being a woman over 30 but to be fair I hated my twenties too. I'll never grow old I'll make sure of it.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I have already relegated myself to old age by completely isolating but the future does not seem any brighter that's for sure
 
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jodes2

jodes2

Hello people ❤️
Aug 28, 2022
7,736
I fear old age too. Having to deal with a crumbling healthcare system and crumbling health is my idea of a nightmare. I'm sorry you have more difficulties being a woman 🤗🤗
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
The effects of medication on me for 16 years have aged me terribly. I used to be good looking. I hate it.
 
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Rational man

Rational man

Enlightened
Oct 19, 2021
1,485
In think its tragic that humanity identifies so strongly with th physical body!. ,People die their hair, get BOTOX etc but In the end this human form is withering away from birth. We create our own.suffering
 
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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
I have always been disgusted with my appearance. If I don't ctb soon enough, I know I'll do it before I can grow into wrinkles. I'm only in my early 20s and I already feel too old now, being a proper adult. I feel like I've squandered my youth by just being miserable and hating myself. I know I would never be able to cope with facing the physical affects of aging, especially when I can't even stand to face myself in the mirror today. My grandmother was old and delusional, and she would always warn me "never get old". I'm taking it to heart.
I'm 25 and feel the same way. Unless one can afford to keep up their looks they are doomed haha. I am happy this feeling is something you understand
 
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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
I fear old age too. Having to deal with a crumbling healthcare system and crumbling health is my idea of a nightmare. I'm sorry you have more difficulties being a woman 🤗🤗
Thank you so much for this kind reply! You make a good point that I failed to touch on… the healthcare system is horrible and only getting worse!
 
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freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
768
Is anyone committing because they fear growing old and knowing that society will treat you differently once you age, if you don't still look a certain way? I'm just curious because I think it's a really valid fear some people have because that fear if far from irrational due to how our society is structured, especially if you are a woman. If you do fear getting old, are there other reasons as to why like, so you fear you'll end up alone, or have some inherent knowing that you will end up alone and you'd like to not live that way?
Actually. I'm a lot more comfortable being 60 than I was 20. I much prefer not being a target for unwanted attention or seen as a sexual object. I aim to pass unnoticed on the rare occasions I leave the house. That said, I too dread becoming frail, ill, immobile or any of those delights.
 
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Lifeaballache

Student
Aug 28, 2022
163
Ever since I was a teenager I've been scared of getting older. I'm 26 now and had these feelings since I was 13/14. Just loved my teenage body and flawless skin. I'm getting to the stage now where I don't look right without a beard which just makes me feel older and my hair is starting to thin. I hate aging!
 
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Euthanza

Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
1,447
I don't want to get 50, I'm getting closer to my limit in few years ahead
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,203
I will begone before my next milestone birthday. I've been suffering here long enough.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,852
Nothing to fear...unless you're alone
 
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brokensea

brokensea

Arcanist
Aug 4, 2022
405
I imagine being old and alone with no family and no one all the time. Sitting in some cheap run down senior center place with no one visiting me and living in my own shit. I'm positive this is the future for me with no family.

I am a bit unhappy I've gained so much weight in two years not leaving my house or hardly getting out of bed.

But overall I have always not cared about what people look like. I find society so vile in that it is so superficial and shallow that I don't see people or the world through a lens of being attractive or not and it amounts to nothing so I feel I don't care about the shallow meaningless opinions of people who care what someone looks like so I guess in some way that's never been a big concern for me. I wouldn't want to be around someone who looked down on others because they weren't some stereotypical made up idea of beauty that is utterly meaningless to who someone is, so why would I care what they think?
 
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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
I'm 44, planning CTB 47, latest 48
I'm 25 and never wanted to live to fifty. I dunno how you've lived this long… life hurts me too much
 
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enau

Student
Apr 15, 2021
142
I think I'm too mentally disabled or autistic, to understand what it's like to live a life where you grow old, not only to become old, sick, weak, but also to evolve. This is the tragedy of life, of time. It's not just a matter of being alone, and the loss of "beauty", of course, the impact of time on the body is terrible, because not only people, relationship, things are unstable, but we'are in our flesfh and mental.

our body will change, becoming totally different, your whole being will change, but not by choice, our being will inevitably bend under the weight of time. It's also psychological, our mind will be damaged, we take nothing with us, neither comfort, nor beauty, nor warmth, nor love.

But even without these thoughts, in my immaturity peterpan complex i suppose, I don't understand the interest of life in old age: I can conceive the attraction of adolescent life, or between 20/30 years, because we explore, discover, .. but then come the moment where you lay fondation for something . . you construct your life, in a way/road... and then, what is the next? get stuck in it? we stay in the habits?
Anyway, as said, im disabled and I did not build my being.Being old is .. not only be part of this world, but be the fondation of the next world, It is to be the world now and you re becoming slowly the past of the world. ..as an old person my destiny in age will be degeneration and no, evolution, because I don't know how to exist as a person in this world. Existence as we experience it, seems to me like a simulation of a infinished demo game, which would only be functional for the first levels.
 
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lofticries

lofticries

obedear
Feb 27, 2021
1,470
Yeah, I wanna leave before I'm completely unrecognizable and too ill to care for myself. Fuck suffering till my last breath. Tired of old age being romanticized. Unless you have big money in the bank and fam/friends you'll be miserable af.

30s,maybe 40s ok. But 50s no. My parents will be dead by then and I'll be completely alone.
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
Is anyone committing because they fear growing old and knowing that society will treat you differently once you age, if you don't still look a certain way? I'm just curious because I think it's a really valid fear some people have because that fear if far from irrational due to how our society is structured, especially if you are a woman. If you do fear getting old, are there other reasons as to why like, so you fear you'll end up alone, or have some inherent knowing that you will end up alone and you'd like to not live that way?
I was sicker than my old aunt at 20, some are super alert and active at 80. I hope I'll do like Robin Williams if I get dementia... But with the concussion and toxic cleaner I bombed my home with... I'm far gone already... I have more lucid moments... I was always alone...
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,152
I'm really worried about failing health as I get older. I'm already alone and I've always been fairly ugly- so- less to lose there but I'm frightened of losing my independence. Plus, I'm not financially equipt to make it into old age!
 
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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
Yeah, I wanna leave before I'm completely unrecognizable and too ill to care for myself. Fuck suffering till my last breath. Tired of old age being romanticized. Unless you have big money in the bank and fam/friends you'll be miserable af.

30s,maybe 40s ok. But 50s no. My parents will be dead by then and I'll be completely alone.
Yep I totally agree with you. And even if you have money, you still need human interaction. Look at the high suicide rates of wealthy people like lawyers, doctors, and business owners. They off themselves all the time
I'm really worried about failing health as I get older. I'm already alone and I've always been fairly ugly- so- less to lose there but I'm frightened of losing my independence. Plus, I'm not financially equipt to make it into old age!
Dude I'm not equipped for old age either! My finances are good, but I couldn't do old age alone and I've lost literally everyone.
 
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toiaistired

toiaistired

Member
Sep 12, 2022
11
sorry abt this but what does CTB stand for? im new here and english is not my first lamguage
 
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Meaninglessness

Existence is absolutely meaningless
Nov 12, 2022
128
I never wanted to grow old. The whole body breaks down if you live long enough. I think there is no dignity in getting too old. Due to the high life expectancy in rich countries, most people die from age-related diseases there. I want to die long before I reach old age. My grandparents suffered from age-related ailments and diseases for many years before they died.
 
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WellDefinedChin

WellDefinedChin

Member
Jan 20, 2023
26
I have always been disgusted with my appearance. If I don't ctb soon enough, I know I'll do it before I can grow into wrinkles. I'm only in my early 20s and I already feel too old now, being a proper adult. I feel like I've squandered my youth by just being miserable and hating myself. I know I would never be able to cope with facing the physical affects of aging, especially when I can't even stand to face myself in the mirror today. My grandmother was old and delusional, and she would always warn me "never get old". I'm taking it to heart.
Freaky. My grandmother has the same meme. She tells me almost every other time I see her "don't get old". Like, come on, gran. I can't help that I will one day die.
 
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Kattt

Banned
May 18, 2021
796
Getting older has its upside too. I believe we're born with a limited number of fucks to deploy. I have barely any left so just give none. it makes life much easier.
Thank the skydaddy I won't have to use online dating or those vile hook up sites. I would die alone a hundred times before doing that shit.
Living alone is literally the best part of being an adult. It's a privilege. I don't have to consider the needs or preferences of anyone but myself. It allows me to be utterly selfish.
I nursed my grandmother is her final weeks. She was in her late 90s and age has robbed a proud and beautiful woman of all her dignity. It is definitely not among my plans for the future. But that's a way off yet.
 
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LunaXCBN

LunaXCBN

The Best Thing (That Never Happened)
Feb 6, 2023
119
A little bit yes, I don't like growing old.
I get extremely panicked and stressed at the thought of turning 20, which I am in a year. It's a number I loathe so much.

30 is beyond my comprehension.
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,990
Am already 50, fortunately I don't give a fig what people think about me,they can either accept me or go take a Flying F#&k at a rolling doughnut 🐁🧀
 
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