when i was younger i attempted in such ways that i knew it probably wouldn't kill me but it would harm me.
you'd think that after someone has actually attempted suicide, they actually have to go to hospital, peoples attitudes would change right? you'd finally get the attention and care you've been craving for all this time, right?
well in my experience no. it doesn't work like that.
once i took the plunge i wasn't met with sympathy or sadness, i was met with anger. i was screamed at by my parents saying they wished it worked (i was 13). the doctors told me i wasn't sick enough for any treatment, as if i was that ill i'd be dead already. i was essentially sent home like nothing happened, with angry parents and unattended cuts, still high off my ass after the od.
i don't want to scare you out of crying for help, but i don't want to give you false hope either. when you become sick enough for it to be a problem people's attitudes can wildly change. the people or professionals you thought really cared about you, might not have the same attitude anymore.
it's really better to go to the professionals as you are, to save yourself the trauma of a failed attempt.
but that's just my opinion and my experience, no matter what you do i hope you find the comfort that you deserve. <3