Help Criticism on my suicide plan.

[suicidestyle]

I'm not going to disclose much about where and what date I'm going to be attempting to CTB, however, I need some valid criticism to my plan.

It will be a combination of pills, and jumping.
The place I will jump off of will be around 15 meters (which if i'm correct, is around 5 storeys? 5 storeys is fatal, right?)
Before hand, I will down a bunch of pills, which if I have access to at the time, will be codeine. If not codeine, I will take any pill I find in my house, before falling backwards off the tower, ideally landing head first to prevent any chances of survival.
Would this work? If the fall doesn't kill me, by the time I'm at the hospital, the drugs would, wouldn't they? Please help.

 

[Irisse]

The recommended height is at least ten storeys. However there are exceptions, as some people survive more than that height while others die of a fall from a ladder. But it's better to be sure, therefore I'd recommend you to search another structure which is at least 10 storeys high.

Pills are a good idea in order to numb SI. However, overdoses rarely work so I'm not sure if that would end you.

Also another piece of advice, as someone who failed to jump off a bridge: you need to do it as soon as possible after you climb the structure, otherwise you risk being seen and "saved". Also it's better to do it at night with dark clothing.

 

[suicidestyle]

The recommended height is at least ten storeys. However there are exceptions, as some people survive more than that height while others die of a fall from a ladder. But it's better to be sure, therefore I'd recommend you to search another structure which is at least 10 storeys high.

Pills are a good idea in order to numb SI. However, overdoses rarely work so I'm not sure it that would end you.

Also another piece of advice, as someone who failed to jump off a bridge: you need to do it as soon as possible after you'd climb the structure, otherwise you risk being seen and "saved". Also it's better to do it at night with dark clothing.

Considering how far away this place is from me (1 hour by bus..) and the fact that its only 5 storeys high, I adjusted my plan a little. There's this train station near me and I think it'd be more convenient to just do train. Would the pill option still be necessary, or would train be fatal enough, regardless? Also, do you know when you're supposed to jump, and which part of the rails you're meant to wait at?

 

[Irisse]

Honestly I'm not familiar with the train method, but I do think pills might be necessary here, not to end you, but to numb your SI a bit.

Train would definitely be fatal enough but I don't know if you can imagine yourself waiting until it comes closer and closer, with the horn blowing and rails vibrating and not running away. Though if you can, you might not even need the pills.

As for the jumping in front of it part, I honestly don't know, but there were some accounts here who recommended laying on the tracks with the neck on the rail, in order to be decapitated.

 

[suicidestyle]

Honestly I'm not familiar with the train method, but I do think pills might be necessary here, not to end you, but to numb your SI a bit.

Train would definitely be fatal enough but I don't know if you can imagine yourself waiting until it comes closer and closer, with the horn blowing and rails vibrating and not running away. Though if you can, you might not even need the pills.

As for the jumping in front of it part, I honestly don't know, but there were some accounts here who recommended laying on the tracks with the neck on the rail, in order to be decapitated.

I don't really think I can lay down on the tracks. May I mention this is at a station, so there'll be other people around. Unless there's a way to figure out which part of the track to see the train other than the station, maybe then I can do that.

 

[Irisse]

Right, I'm sorry, I guess I misread the station part. Definitely not a good idea to lay then. But honestly I'm not familiar with that method, maybe someone else more familiar will comment? I hope I managed to help at least a little.

 

[NutOrat]

The place I will jump off of will be around 15 meters (which if i'm correct, is around 5 storeys? 5 storeys is fatal, right?)

No! 15 meters is not enough, even 30 meters has a chance of survival. It's too risky. 10+ story building and hard surface (concrete, tiles). No idea about the pills.

Both jumping and train methods are very brutal and will most surely traumatize others. I understand it that's not a concern, though. I care less and less about that every day. In any case, please do more research on jumping and other methods before thinking of committing. Don't rush, if you can. Take care.

EDIT: Actually it's even more than I thought. 40-50+ meters, and even then, it's never guaranteed. Here's a well known resource, also has other methods: https://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/jumping-high-building/, and here's a megathread here on SaSu, but I'm not sure how accurate it is, so take it with a grain of salt: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/jumping-megathread.10250/.

 

[suicidestyle]

No! 15 meters is not enough, even 30 meters has a chance of survival. It's too risky. 10+ story building and hard surface (concrete, tiles). No idea about the pills.

Both jumping and train methods are very brutal and will most surely traumatize others. I understand it that's not a concern, though. I care less and less about that every day. In any case, please do more research on jumping and other methods before thinking of committing. Don't rush, if you can. Take care.

EDIT: Actually it's even more than I thought. 40-50+ meters, and even then, it's never guaranteed. Here's a well known resource, also has other methods: https://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/jumping-high-building/, and here's a megathread here on SaSu, but I'm not sure how accurate it is, so take it with a grain of salt: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/jumping-megathread.10250/.

I don't really mind it not being a guaranteed aslong as there's a high chance of success. Where I live there's not many tall buildings, so even if that's my preferred method, it'll be hard to go through. :(
Also, train wouldn't be that bad, it's just that at the station the train slows down and needs time to accelerate at departure, I don't want to risk jumping like an idiot and just going face splat against the train instead of dying, lol! And walking around looking for a midway of the track (where the train would be the fastest) seems just too inconvenient and tiring.

 

[NutOrat]

I don't really mind it not being a guaranteed aslong as there's a high chance of success. Where I live there's not many tall buildings, so even if that's my preferred method, it'll be hard to go through. :(
Also, train wouldn't be that bad, it's just that at the station the train slows down and needs time to accelerate at departure, I don't want to risk jumping like an idiot and just going face splat against the train instead of dying, lol! And walking around looking for a midway of the track (where the train would be the fastest) seems just too inconvenient and tiring.

I'm not super knowledgeable on train and other vehicle-related methods, but from what little research I did I can't in any way recommend them, sorry. People survive with awful injuries and there is so much rng involved, as you're not the only one who affects the method. I ask you again to please consider more options.

 

[suicidestyle]

I'm not super knowledgeable on train and other vehicle-related methods, but from what little research I did I can't in any way recommend them, sorry. People survive with awful injuries and there is so much rng involved, as you're not the only one who affects the method. I ask you again to please consider more options.

I guess I'm going back to considering jumping...
I do want to feel the free fall anyway. I want to feel free in atleast one way in my life. Jumping is the way to go. Problem is, I can't drive, so I have to take the bus. I also live with my parents and I don't want them getting suspicious about me being out for so long, so the bus ride can't be a long way. 5 storey's is enough for me to feel confident at all, I just need to land head first and on pavement. I'll be fine. Just got to find a suitable place first.
Also, apparently falls are like fatal if they're 3 times your height or something. I'm 5'3 so around triple that would be around a floor, wouldn't it? Wouldn't 5 storeys be pretty fatal in that regard anyway, then? Even more fatal if I were to land head first?

 

[itsgone2]

I guess I'm going back to considering jumping...
I do want to feel the free fall anyway. I want to feel free in atleast one way in my life. Jumping is the way to go. Problem is, I can't drive, so I have to take the bus. I also live with my parents and I don't want them getting suspicious about me being out for so long, so the bus ride can't be a long way. 5 storey's is enough for me to feel confident at all, I just need to land head first and on pavement. I'll be fine. Just got to find a suitable place first.
Also, apparently falls are like fatal if they're 3 times your height or something. I'm 5'3 so around triple that would be around a floor, wouldn't it? Wouldn't 5 storeys be pretty fatal in that regard anyway, then? Even more fatal if I were to land head first?

You seem indecisive, but I've had a plan for a long time and not getting anywhere. Indecisive and impulsive might be good. If jumping though you really do need height so yeah keep looking