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Always-in-trouble

Student
Jan 14, 2026
140
129,764: I feel like I make everything worse for my carers. I am just so negative now.
 
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boddibo

boddibo

bot
Dec 19, 2023
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129,765

why do you think that?
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
401
✨129,766✨
 
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boddibo

boddibo

bot
Dec 19, 2023
5,292
129,767

Hi J! Been a while
 
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Always-in-trouble

Student
Jan 14, 2026
140
129,765

why do you think that?
All I think about is suicide x1000 daily. Nothing compares to that obessiveness and it is making me sprial, even though my life really isn't that bad
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
401
129,769(?)

Hey guys and girls, yeah Jesus was occupied ignoring people's prays. Busy business
 
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boddibo

boddibo

bot
Dec 19, 2023
5,292
129,770

@gunmetalblue that's why my prayers have been ignored 😡

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@Always-in-trouble If you are feeling suicidal, it does mean something makes you feel bad despite having the feeling that your life 'isn't that bad'. Things as depression and suicide ideation are not inherently logical. Sometimes, even the little things can get us to that state of mind. Sometimes it can even be something you view as trivial. Suicide ideation isn't a competition.
 
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GlassMoon

GlassMoon

😶‍🌫️
Nov 18, 2024
388
129,768 hello and good night
 
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Lov3

Lov3

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
355
Hello jesus -Amén-
Hello AIT i'm sorry
129 769??
Hello Glass Gn
 
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boddibo

bot
Dec 19, 2023
5,292
129,770(?)

@GlassMoon hello good night hope life's okayish for you
 
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GlassMoon

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Nov 18, 2024
388
@boddibo Mostly busy, things going up and down. What happened to @U. A. ? You mentioned him earlier and I saw he didn't play for more than a week.

129,769 yay I get to say it

Edit: sorry, wrong number 🫣
 
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Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

The Seventh Circle's Favorite Witch (Fae/Faer)
Nov 19, 2025
243
129668

I dunno what the hell just happened, but I'm here
 
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Lov3

Lov3

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
355
129 669?
I've already lost count again.

Ni hao xi-xi
 
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boddibo

bot
Dec 19, 2023
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129,770
hi Xi

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Lov3

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
355
We swallowed 100 numbers without even realizing it:haha:
129 771
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
401
129,772

The counting demon is back to cause havoc.
Looks like everyone has been summoned
 
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Always-in-trouble

Student
Jan 14, 2026
140
129,773: Self-hatred, apathy and maldaptive daydreaming might be making all of those pests worse. I can't cope with my thoughts for much longer as it so jumbled from desires, regerts etc. I might try to kms again with a different method despites the pleas form my carers and push for support with therapy for example, which probably won't work since I would just go back to thinking the same stuff all over. Maybe medication is the only way. @boddibo
 
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Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

The Seventh Circle's Favorite Witch (Fae/Faer)
Nov 19, 2025
243
129 772

Boa Tarde, Amor.

And, good afternoon or night to the rest of you lads.
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
401
129,773

I mean it's always bright in heaven so I couldn't tell you the time honestly
 
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Lov3

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
355
Boa tarde Xi-Xi senpai(
Is there a term in Chinese for "senpai"?

129 773
 
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Always-in-trouble

Student
Jan 14, 2026
140
129,774: Good night Xi and to the rest too, gotta hand in my switch in half-hour so I might not be here for longxd. Also heaven is just arctic summer times with 23 hours of sunlight+1 hpur @gunmetalblue
 
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Lov3

Lov3

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
355
129,774: Good night Xi and to the rest too, gotta hand in my switch in half-hour so I might not be here for longxd. Also heaven is just arctic summer times with 23 hours of sunlight+1 hpur @gunmetalblue
It must be surreal to live with days like that.
Take care, come back whenever you want. It's worth distracting yourself a little.
129 775

I must be talking nonsense. I started feeling tired listening to the rain fall here. The sound of droplets really makes me sleepy.
 
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boddibo

bot
Dec 19, 2023
5,292
129,776

i feel tired too lol vision is blurry
 
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Lov3

Lov3

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
355
129 777
Have you ever felt like this? Like, you're going to study or work and you get sleepy, but at night sleep doesn't come easily? There was a time in my life when I felt sleepy all the time and had no motivation. But it was depression knocking at my door.
 
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boddibo

bot
Dec 19, 2023
5,292
129,778

oh, i'm already depressed so i'm used to it,
in fact i can easily fall asleep but i do have things that haunt me at night before falling asleep
 
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Lov3

Lov3

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
355
I'm very sorry.
129,779.
I think the numbers are correct now.
 
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