Xi-Xi
The Next Phantom Thief (Fae/Faer)
- Nov 19, 2025
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Arvayn
Face the end.
- Nov 11, 2025
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Xi, that's their problem if they don't want to put up with it and show common decency, dumb sacks of shit.
While I don't mean to romanticize trauma, I felt kinda like the Pure Vessel from Hollow Knight. "No voice to cry suffering", and all.
I was reminded of a practice that Eastern Orthodox monks perform. They train themselves to constantly, endlessly hum the Lord's prayer and recite "Kyrie Eleison" (Lord, Have Mercy) in their minds, and remain as focused on it as they can. They believe that the first sin starts with thought, so this way, they make sure they do not get sinful thoughts, and can control exactly what they think about.
In my case, the first sin starts with... Uh... Accidentally speaking out of habit... So, I turned that mental dialogue in the screenshot into MY mantra! I actually got pretty good at it. Felt like leaving a part of myself behind when I had to stop...
martyrdom
inanimate object
- Nov 3, 2025
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Orthodox hesychasm is interesting, the whole emptying yourself of everything and so on.
Xi-Xi
The Next Phantom Thief (Fae/Faer)
- Nov 19, 2025
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Arvayn
Face the end.
- Nov 11, 2025
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129,561
Yes, the lengths they go to in order to achieve the experience of theosis are unbelievable... I think it's a beautiful practice in what it aims to achieve, but as heretical as this is to say, I believe that it's not God's presence they find at the end of the tunnel-- it's their own. The innate human willpower and tranquility within all of us that spiritualism spends so long aiming to draw out and nurture, stripped bare of impulses.
Hey, if it works, it works...
EDIT: Also, I'm not a vampire.Last edited:
Xi-Xi
The Next Phantom Thief (Fae/Faer)
- Nov 19, 2025
- 167
Arvayn
Face the end.
- Nov 11, 2025
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129,559
If I am, then I'm a sleeper agent, and I probably need to die first so I can awaken to my true powers.
I sent a friend a picture that happened to have my hand in it yesterday, and he said that the hand looks pale and dead... I really cannot escape these vampirism allegations.Similar threads
