venua
ven *
- Jul 1, 2023
- 61
I feel dead. Completely numb. My body is disgusting & my mind is elsewhere. Even when good things happen I can't feel anything. He loves me he loves me he loves me! And yet right now I feel nothing. The words I cling to as my refuge now torture me in my head. "Forgive them Father, they know not what they do." - it's funny because it seems like I did every time I lied to you. I'm hosted in a body that I'm not meant for. I look at myself and have no connection to my reflection. It's staring back at me and I'm void of all feeling. Is this not pathetic? God, why won't you answer? I give my all to you, My Father. I expected your mercy and unlimited love. I've repented. I'm pure, free of sin. Or at least I believe I am. Please let me feel something.
