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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
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All this covid hoax or planned crisis played into my suicidality heavily. I was just wetting my toes in 2019, daydreaming about integrating into society again through my programming interests, when the totalitarian takeover was tried - successfully, which threw me into the densest and more determined bout of misanthropy to date.

Even nowadays I get this itch to contradict everyone speaking of "the pandemic", which never bode well in the end as you can imagine, as I'm an absolute minority on top of having crippling social anxiety and depression, so I really shouldn't get into arguments.

But lately I've been toying with this idea. Why not try to treat belief in authority and the official narrative as a powerful religion? Would you have tried to argue with every single person you met about the absurdities of Christianity in the 15th century, in some European town? No, history had to run its course, the majority would continue to be religious for a long time, and you couldn't do jackshit about it.

I still think we should voice our opinions with this and whatever that might come when the timing and platform is right but overall it is counterproductive to confront everyone about some established dogma that most of society takes for granted.
 
veryhappyhuman

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I guess kinda get where you're going with this, but covid is very real, happening right in front of our eyes for many of us. I mean, it's no "hey I know a guy who know a guy who walks on water" or whatever. I've literally lost people in my family to covid, healthy af one day and dead a week later of nothing but covid.

That said, yeah the self-isolation thing ruined me mentally too. Like you I was kinda okayish by 2019, but locked alone within 4 walls for months utterly fucked me up.
 
Marine

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All this covid hoax or planned crisis played into my suicidality heavily. I was just wetting my toes in 2019, daydreaming about integrating into society again through my programming interests, when the totalitarian takeover was tried - successfully, which threw me into the densest and more determined bout of misanthropy to date.

Even nowadays I get this itch to contradict everyone speaking of "the pandemic", which never bode well in the end as you can imagine, as I'm an absolute minority on top of having crippling social anxiety and depression, so I really shouldn't get into arguments.

But lately I've been toying with this idea. Why not try to treat belief in authority and the official narrative as a powerful religion? Would you have tried to argue with every single person you met about the absurdities of Christianity in the 15th century, in some European town? No, history had to run its course, the majority would continue to be religious for a long time, and you couldn't do jackshit about it.

I still think we should voice our opinions with this and whatever that might come when the timing and platform is right but overall it is counterproductive to confront everyone about some established dogma that most of society takes for granted.
Covidism IS a new kind of religion, technically it's a totalitarian ideology like nazism, facism etc.

Man I feel you though. It's the worst thing that could happen to me when I was trying to rebuild my life from scratch.

Resisting in spite of losing everything I desperately needed to live, being ostracized and agressed everywhere I went yet never surrendering, and finding every clever way I could to counter that madness in spite of being so fragile because there was no way to betray my conscience no matter what made me feel stronger and honorable as a human being though. Now I do need those responsible to eventully pay for what they've done to me (and the rest of us) though since it's forever unforgivable. I also need to find new people and places to survive this and I wish it was easier.
 
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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
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I guess kinda get where you're going with this, but covid is very real, happening right in front of our eyes for many of us. I mean, it's no "hey I know a guy who know a guy who walks on water" or whatever. I've literally lost people in my family to covid, healthy af one day and dead a week later of nothing but covid.

That said, yeah the self-isolation thing ruined me mentally too. Like you I was kinda okayish by 2019, but locked alone within 4 walls for months utterly fucked me up.
My grandmother died "due to covid" but she was a 84 year old with diabetes and had been looking sickly for the last few years.

I'm sorry for your losses. I personally never felt the kind of death toll a pandemic would cause in my family or with the people I studied with.
 
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