Help Considering SN but fear of death

[HeartThatFeeds]

I'm considering SN since it seems to be the most recommended method to CTB on here, but I'm scared to actually buy it, not only will it be a waste of money without the correct medication but I'm scared once I actually get everything ready and do take it I will immediately regret it and have to suffer with going to the hospital and being scolded by my parents.

A lot of my CTB attempts are completely impulsive because of my borderline and I don't get chronic depression too much so my attempts are not pre planned, so it's also another worry that if I do buy SN, I'll take it during one of my episodes without thinking waste it that way. Any advice?

 

[uniqueusername4]

You could always get the SN and not the other components. That way you're less likely to impulsively do it? I personally wouldn't take it without benzos and antiemetic, I don't know if that is the same for you.

That is what I did for myself, it was frustrating af when I recently wanted to attempt, it takes forever to find sources for this shit and then the shipping. It is a good way to pause and make sure you really want to go though.