Considering going missing this week

[musicislife]

My folks know I'm suicidal right now but are brushing it under the mat, well they would, I'm still alive !!

But I'm considering going missing this week when I say going I'm missing taking myself to a secluded part of the country so far off the beaten track and killing myself but I hope to be so far off the beaten track that I wouldn't be found hopefully forever if that's even a possibility!!

My question is is this a cruel thing to do especially to my mom?? Of us the fact that she has hope that I'm maybe still alive and she can hold out for that, that I may make future contact even though i never ever will ??

Is it cruel

 

[bag.of.cats]

But I'm considering going missing this week when I say going I'm missing taking myself to a secluded part of the country so far off the beaten track and killing myself

I'm planning the same. After thinking it through, I decided to send a delayed message, even though I hate my parents because of how they abused and mistreated me. I'm still thinking if I should write about my reasons for doing it or not.