endlesschatter
CTB asap
- Aug 30, 2026
- 164
Okay dear friends, I'm in a tricky situation.
I have found a source of SN, I'm not sure if it's legit or not, but I'm thinking of giving it a shot. I'll have to be really careful how do I sneak it inside my home without it ever getting found.
Let's say, I get it and it's pure as well.
The challenge that I now have is, my parents weren't this loving earlier. After they came to know about my ctb thoughts, they have become more loving. They rarely scold me now.
They are old too and its really tough to see them getting old because I do love them.
The confusion that I'm in is, if I have pure SN should I go ahead with it and leave a void at home that'll turn the atmosphere into a mourning dull atmosphere for several years to follow. Or, if i should wait until the right time to ctb after they are gone from the planet so they don't have to face the pain of loss.
I'm wondering, by then SN Will become as scarce as N.
CTB in the future will be even more difficult than it is now considering how much control is being exercised.
What are your thoughts friends, what should I do? On one hand I'm tired of life, on the other I don't want my parents to witness pain, but at the same time, ctb in future is going to be difficult than it is now . What to do
I have found a source of SN, I'm not sure if it's legit or not, but I'm thinking of giving it a shot. I'll have to be really careful how do I sneak it inside my home without it ever getting found.
Let's say, I get it and it's pure as well.
The challenge that I now have is, my parents weren't this loving earlier. After they came to know about my ctb thoughts, they have become more loving. They rarely scold me now.
They are old too and its really tough to see them getting old because I do love them.
The confusion that I'm in is, if I have pure SN should I go ahead with it and leave a void at home that'll turn the atmosphere into a mourning dull atmosphere for several years to follow. Or, if i should wait until the right time to ctb after they are gone from the planet so they don't have to face the pain of loss.
I'm wondering, by then SN Will become as scarce as N.
CTB in the future will be even more difficult than it is now considering how much control is being exercised.
What are your thoughts friends, what should I do? On one hand I'm tired of life, on the other I don't want my parents to witness pain, but at the same time, ctb in future is going to be difficult than it is now . What to do
