Confused

[•_still_here_•]

I want to live, move to another country, have a normal college life, go out and party with friends and drink until I'm senseless, have my own apartment, get my first pay cheque, go on solo trips and so much more. I want to do so much but I don't want to be alive anymore, and I don't even know why. I'm just tired of life. I want to overdose of paracetamols, but I still haven't 'cause I'm just confused. I want to live but also I'm tired and just feel out of it half the time. I don't even know why I still choose to keep living and wake up every morning. I guess, I'm scared of it. It's going to be painful to kill myself. But then again, my had keeps reminding me that I should just die.

 

[U. A.]

You cannot overdose on paracetamol. It's nearly impossible to OD on anything OTC, even most Rx

Why ODs Fail Miserably (A Guide)

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You have goals, that's why you wake up. Why not achieve them before dying?

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

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[getoutgirl]

I get that struggle, that double want of both living and dying, with the fear and uncertainty that come with the two. Is not a great existence to be stuck in that limbo. It's suicidal depression, and yeah it can kill you or leave you like a zombie if unnatended.
I hope you are getting the support and professional help required to deal with this, because if not it really is an awful experience to go through daily. I feel you there. So I hope you are getting that, and that it gets better and easier for you to decide to pursue what you actually want to do in life, without as much pushback from the cruel mind. Big hugs to you <3

 

[•_still_here_•]

You cannot overdose on paracetamol. It's nearly impossible to OD on anything OTC, even most Rx

Why ODs Fail Miserably (A Guide)

There's still a lot of questions and inquiries about ODs, and people asking about what things may facilitate a successful attempt. Let's be clear, ODs are rarely fatal. Why? For a couple of reasons: (1) modern medications are designed to be very safe, as manufacturers aim to avoid deaths that...

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You have goals, that's why you wake up. Why not achieve them before dying?

Oh, guess that plan is out the window now. And to answer your question, well I'm just tired and things just keep piling up with everyday and it's kinda exhausting, y'know. It's pretty stupid really, I'm scared of how much it'd hurt to die but also I'm just exhausted by living. And sure I have things I wanna do but when I try and imagine my future it looks too blurry. I mean, I kinda know what I want to do but also not, everything is too confusing and too far away and everyday just gets more and more exhausting, doesn't help that people around me don't know about any of this and act normally around me which adds even more things for me to handle. They just kinda make me sadder and sadder everyday even though I try my best, I end up making mistakes and then....I have to sit through someone screaming at me again. It's kinda rough out here at home, people don't really like to communicate, they just become passive aggressive or start screaming. Anyways, that's a lot of venting......sorry 'bout that, I just needed to get it off my chest. Thanks again for informing me about my method! I can now cross that off of my plan, heh.
Hope you're having a great day/night, and if you aren't then hope your day/night gets better!ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧

Non-methods that should not be attempted

mod note: this has been added to the suicide resource compilation at the top. This has been made in response to the ever increasing amount of posts made about highly unlikely methods. Please read before posting about one of these methods or feel free to link if someone does post about them...

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Thanks for informing! It sounds like a horrible way to go now that I read it.......yikes. Thanks for saving me some pretty terrible experiences. Hope you're having a great day/night, and if you aren't hope your day/night gets better!:･ﾟ✧(ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

I get that struggle, that double want of both living and dying, with the fear and uncertainty that come with the two. Is not a great existence to be stuck in that limbo. It's suicidal depression, and yeah it can kill you or leave you like a zombie if unnatended.
I hope you are getting the support and professional help required to deal with this, because if not it really is an awful experience to go through daily. I feel you there. So I hope you are getting that, and that it gets better and easier for you to decide to pursue what you actually want to do in life, without as much pushback from the cruel mind. Big hugs to you <3

My life kinda just becomes like that out of nowhere for some weeks or months at least once a year. Normally it'd just be a few weeks or a month but this year around it has lasted for too long. I hope things would get better like how they normally did after a month or two but nothing changed instead it kinda just got worse....maybe relying on life to sort itself out was a mistake....Thanks for understanding and for being so nice! Hope you're having a great day/night, and if not, then hope it gets better!!o( > ᗜ < )o ₊˚⊹♡