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blephaosiris
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- Jan 17, 2024
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I am an abuser. I have emotionally, financially, sexually, and physically abused many, many people for as long as I can remember. I have emotionally and physically abused children in my care. I am a narcissist and most likely a sociopath - but I have recently had an epiphany of self-awareness where I realised I am not the victim in any of the stories of my life, but the perpetrator. I am not the hero in this story, but the villain in more than I can count. I have crashed through life manipulating and traumatising innocent people, including my own child and my ex's children, and I have only just recognised myself for what I am. If my most recent ex-partner went to the police I would confess everything. I am so ashamed and I can't live with the knowledge that all I have ever done is be bad for everyone who gets close to me. The things I have done are unforgivable and I sincerely hope there is no afterlife, because existing for eternity with this guilt would be unbearable.