confessed suicide ideation

[bbye111]

i confessed my depression and suicide ideation along my attempts with my parents... they just hurt me in return telling my im out of my mind...

 

[drumroll]

That sounds disturbing. I don't know any details or backgrounds though.
Yet in my opinion this is what probably is expectable.
Hope you are somewhat fine and can come clear.

 

[Fwompje]

i confessed my depression and suicide ideation along my attempts with my parents... they just hurt me in return telling my im out of my mind...

I've found parents are often in denial about their child's mental health. I've been struggling with various issues since I was a teen yet they only now are starting to understand that I'm not lazy.

Parents aren't everything, a lot of parents suck. It's just shame they won't support you in your struggles when that is the most important thing a parent should do.

 

[Failure21]

I also told my parents a while ago and only got guilt tripped by them saying how much it would affect them and that I was being selfish by even considering it.

I imagine telling your family can be therapeutic or helpful for some people but it seems more often than not it doesn't seem to help anyone.

 

[OutOfTheVoid]

im sorry your parents reacted like that and hurt you. i understand why they'd be upset assuming they care about you, but thats disrespectful of them to blame you and gaslight you like that. i wish people were more empathetic and respectful to suicidal people.

 

[AllMyDreams]

That really sucks. Know at least that you're not alone in your experience. So many parents just don't understand (because when they grew up, depression and suicide wasn't nearly as normal, or talked about, as now). You're brave to tell them though, and it shows that you want to improve. I don't know your parents but you could try emphasizing to them that you're telling them because you want help getting better, and because you love them too much to keep them in the dark. Basically, emphasize that your motives are good and that you're not just doing this because you're crazy or need attention.

Do you think you have a disorder that causes depression, or are you just depressed as a result of unhappiness/trauma in your life?

 

[FuneralCry]

Those people just sound so insensitive, I think that it's a terrible idea being so open about wanting to die as many people won't even try to understand.

 

[Brave_it_Shiru]

I've been on both sides and I participated in actively admitting a someone close into a MH facility. I just wanted to help and felt so helpless. Looking back, I know I just wanted to take the burden off of myself.

 

[etherealgoddess]

i confessed my depression and suicide ideation along my attempts with my parents... they just hurt me in return telling my im out of my mind...

Wow, that has GOT to hurt... You are not alone. It's not only your parents, but it's even mine. I would understand if you feel disappointed or upset by your parents. This is why this website exists, though. The second I start talking about suicide with other people, it's basically anti-choice answers, not even discussing the pros and cons and such. Do people realize that in 150 years, all of us in this very moment will be dead?

After my first attempt to poison myself with acetaminophen (HORRIBLE METHOD--takes 3 days to die and after the 8-hour mark, it's irreversible, so you would have to sit there for 2.5 days in agony and die), after 30 minutes, I told my dad that I had taken pills. My dad shook me out of anger and told me to get ready to go to the ER. The whole drive, he talks about how I am an interruption to his work and that he has a call and lots of other work to do. After I come back from the psychiatric stay, my dad asks, "Are you done with this stupid shit?" and tells me that if I were to try and kill myself again, he would let me die. I also never realized that I always desired validation from my dad because he would sometimes compare me to other kids. When I was a younger teenager, my dad told me that many people have depression but they still get their work done. You can imagine how much all of this takes a toll, especially considering that I can remember all of these moments. I know it hurts. Just do not take the moral opinion of people who are anti-choice, which is also like 99% of the people who you will meet outside of this website.

 

[SilentSadness]

They will never understand the pain others go through until they have gone through it themselves, that's just how humans are. The fact we are all alone even when we tell others makes everything so much worse. I hope you get the understanding you deserve in the future.

 

[Octavia]

They are either in denial, or really really dumb. How insensitive of them.

"There were no signs" smh