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bcl001
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- Dec 6, 2023
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If you are fortunate enough to have those that care about you, how do you reconcile with the knowledge that you are hurting them by leaving this world.
This is something I'm having trouble coming to grips with. When I contemplate my CTB, I do not mourn for myself, but for those I will leave behind who have to pick up the pieces. To me, my life means nothing, but to others, I know this isn't the case.
In one sense I recognize that it's selfish to willingly inflict harm on those around me, in the other sense I can't keep living my life for the sake of others.
I try to convince myself that we're all just monkeys who got to smart for our own good. Our existence has no meaning, at the end of the day we all die and I'm just accelerating that for one smart monkey out of 8 billion others. People die everyday. Also that by dying my wealth could be used to help countless others in need who actually desire to be in this world.
Sometimes this cuts through the guilt, sometimes it doesn't. How do others think about this?
This is something I'm having trouble coming to grips with. When I contemplate my CTB, I do not mourn for myself, but for those I will leave behind who have to pick up the pieces. To me, my life means nothing, but to others, I know this isn't the case.
In one sense I recognize that it's selfish to willingly inflict harm on those around me, in the other sense I can't keep living my life for the sake of others.
I try to convince myself that we're all just monkeys who got to smart for our own good. Our existence has no meaning, at the end of the day we all die and I'm just accelerating that for one smart monkey out of 8 billion others. People die everyday. Also that by dying my wealth could be used to help countless others in need who actually desire to be in this world.
Sometimes this cuts through the guilt, sometimes it doesn't. How do others think about this?
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