markimobzzdeasui
Life is a cruel joke
- Oct 24, 2021
- 1,148
Last few months I have been too much drowned in my extreme miseries that this forum and the people here are the only real sense of safety I have left. Sometimes I feel too much comfortable and safe, reading stories of people here and relating to them ,that I forget I still live in the same world of prolifers.
I forget that I still have to go through same anxieties and Paranoia about the fear of failure in order to actually ctb and their opinions and hatred towards me even if I am successful, won't change.
I just wish Suicide was actually that easy way out for me that these people believe it to be and how it is portrayed in the mainstream media!
Or I wish I get that same impulsivity or energy of a teenager even for short time to actually go with it.
I forget that I still have to go through same anxieties and Paranoia about the fear of failure in order to actually ctb and their opinions and hatred towards me even if I am successful, won't change.
I just wish Suicide was actually that easy way out for me that these people believe it to be and how it is portrayed in the mainstream media!
Or I wish I get that same impulsivity or energy of a teenager even for short time to actually go with it.