Got forced into a therapy program by my college. Centered on CBT and did stupid worksheets that made me feel like a child. They were incredibly shallow, pointless, and felt like my therapist was just minimizing all my problems. At some point she has to realize that me worrying about the job market when I graduate is NOT similar at all to her saying, "yeah, even if the school's funding gets cut I can get a new job because I have years of experience." what the fuck do you expect me to say to that? Good for you? Because I fucking don't. Don't even get me started on how I tried to open up with how I actually felt and she immediately forced me into 2x a week therapy and said, "if you don't accept it we're gonna have to discharge you." great. lesson learned not to be fucking honest when every session it feels like she reminds me of the fact she can literally hospitalize me if I rub her the wrong fucking way. It's so easy to just give her the answers she wants anyways. Stupid as hell.
Therapy was a fucking waste of time, energy, and MONEY. Like fuck, if I wanted to sit down and do worksheets take me back to fucking kindergarten. Useless as hell when I already understand some of my thoughts are exaggerations, but frankly-- not all of them are. I'm sick of being minimized with God awful analogies that make me feel worse.
The program's over and I'm giving up on therapy.
Not like my actual college experience is any better. I'm not failing any classes, but I hate my major and I honestly don't know what the hell I'm gonna do with my mechanical engineering degree. I hate engineering. I hate physics. I hate my classes. Bare minimum effort and I study because I don't have anything else to do. I have no friends. I hate my roommate. And I honestly don't want to talk to anyone about anything anymore. I don't want to network. I don't want to work in HVAC. I don't want these shit salaries. I don't want to stay in my hometown and work just because there's soooo many aerospace companies that you have to join!!
I got into this major because my family told me to and the salary's "good." whoever tells you the lie that mech eng salary is "good" don't believe them. It's underpaid and oversaturated. I should've just studied finance even if I family would've laughed at me and called me stupid. At least that's more interesting than this. Nothing makes me happy anymore. My childhood friend keeps calling me up bragging about his internships and his oh so hard decision of "choosing what to specialize in because everything in electrical engineering pays soooo well (130k starting wow!! good for you!!) and I'll get so many interviews haha! yeah, i totally understand your problem of not knowing what to do lolz. I get so irritated whenever people don't use their opportunities at school and complain too lol (isn't this me? Are you trying to tell me something haha? Like how much better you are?)
fuck you. stop calling me if all you're gonna do it talk about how much better you fucking have it and being a dick about it.
Therapy was a fucking waste of time, energy, and MONEY. Like fuck, if I wanted to sit down and do worksheets take me back to fucking kindergarten. Useless as hell when I already understand some of my thoughts are exaggerations, but frankly-- not all of them are. I'm sick of being minimized with God awful analogies that make me feel worse.
The program's over and I'm giving up on therapy.
Not like my actual college experience is any better. I'm not failing any classes, but I hate my major and I honestly don't know what the hell I'm gonna do with my mechanical engineering degree. I hate engineering. I hate physics. I hate my classes. Bare minimum effort and I study because I don't have anything else to do. I have no friends. I hate my roommate. And I honestly don't want to talk to anyone about anything anymore. I don't want to network. I don't want to work in HVAC. I don't want these shit salaries. I don't want to stay in my hometown and work just because there's soooo many aerospace companies that you have to join!!
I got into this major because my family told me to and the salary's "good." whoever tells you the lie that mech eng salary is "good" don't believe them. It's underpaid and oversaturated. I should've just studied finance even if I family would've laughed at me and called me stupid. At least that's more interesting than this. Nothing makes me happy anymore. My childhood friend keeps calling me up bragging about his internships and his oh so hard decision of "choosing what to specialize in because everything in electrical engineering pays soooo well (130k starting wow!! good for you!!) and I'll get so many interviews haha! yeah, i totally understand your problem of not knowing what to do lolz. I get so irritated whenever people don't use their opportunities at school and complain too lol (isn't this me? Are you trying to tell me something haha? Like how much better you are?)
fuck you. stop calling me if all you're gonna do it talk about how much better you fucking have it and being a dick about it.
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