College student with no friends

[BelleDelfino]

I'm a 20 year-old friendless virgin in my first semester in college and every day it frustrates me more and more. I see everyone else laughing and having fun with others every day and it makes me so jealous. All I ever get to do is sit in my dorm room and think all day. I don't get any enjoyment out of my hobbies. I haven't in years. And I have no motivation to do any of my schoolwork, so I'm failing most of my classes. So all I do is sit and think. Often times, my thoughts turn very gruesome and violent. I have a pair of scissors in my room and I get these intense urges to slit my wrists, my throat, stab my eyes, etc. I obviously haven't done any of those yet though. But seriously feel like I'm going insane from the loneliness. I don't know how much longer I can last until I either drop out or kill myself.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I was a friendless virgin in my first semester of college too. It sucks in the beginning, but it can get better if you try to make changes

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

I'm a 20 year-old friendless virgin in my first semester in college and every day it frustrates me more and more. I see everyone else laughing and having fun with others every day and it makes me so jealous. All I ever get to do is sit in my dorm room and think all day. I don't get any enjoyment out of my hobbies. I haven't in years. And I have no motivation to do any of my schoolwork, so I'm failing most of my classes. So all I do is sit and think. Often times, my thoughts turn very gruesome and violent. I have a pair of scissors in my room and I get these intense urges to slit my wrists, my throat, stab my eyes, etc. I obviously haven't done any of those yet though. But seriously feel like I'm going insane from the loneliness. I don't know how much longer I can last until I either drop out or kill myself.

6 years ago I was in your exact position. It really is maddening seeing everyone around you happy and making friends and wondering what's wrong with you. I eventually did make friends (but a lot of them turned out to be shitty). Still dead inside though

 

[ghost_]

im in my third year of uni and I still feel alone at times but I think just showing up is the first step. A lot of times ill ask some people if they want to just do a study group ( whether online via zoom or even in person) and even if I don't do homework or talk it makes me feel better sometimes. maybe try and arrange a study session? or join one? although I know that sometimes is really hard to do.

if u ever wanna talk feel free to message me :)

 

[demuic]

I'm a 20 year-old friendless virgin in my first semester in college and every day it frustrates me more and more. I see everyone else laughing and having fun with others every day and it makes me so jealous. All I ever get to do is sit in my dorm room and think all day. I don't get any enjoyment out of my hobbies. I haven't in years. And I have no motivation to do any of my schoolwork, so I'm failing most of my classes. So all I do is sit and think. Often times, my thoughts turn very gruesome and violent. I have a pair of scissors in my room and I get these intense urges to slit my wrists, my throat, stab my eyes, etc. I obviously haven't done any of those yet though. But seriously feel like I'm going insane from the loneliness. I don't know how much longer I can last until I either drop out or kill myself.

You just described me last year.

I'm sitting at home now doing nothing everyday. For me, I know it will never get any better. I hope I die before I have to go back to college.

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

I was in the same situation as you, but I couldn't take this pressure and I dropped out of college. I hope you get better.

 

[doesntmatter_94]

I was in a very similar situation. First of all, I didn't lose my virginity until I was 27 (and honestly, it's not as great so you're not losing much haha). But also I spent 4 years in college and 1 semester in grad school without making ANY friends. I have heard before that I'm not a very approachable person and have a resting bitch face. But also, I believe that I have such an old soul. I have been through a lot and I was far more mature than my classmates. Therefore, I could never connect to anyone. I get along with older people than me. Two of my best friends are roughly 10 years older than me.

I hope things get better for you! Give it some time. It's still very early on. You got this :)

 

[trianglesplayhouse]

Same situation here. Sucks I guess. What am I gonna do?

I have approached people and talked to them (in class) but tbh I dont really wanna make too many connections if I am gonna ctb.

Online friends are decent to be fair so if you don't wanna approach people irl (understandable) then talk to people online.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know loneliness can be painful for many people. I'm sorry you have to go through this, I can imagine it must be an awful feeling seeing others have the lives that you want. Your feelings of wanting to exit are perfectly understandable when you are constantly suffering. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[HappyPotato]

You just described me last year.

I'm sitting at home now doing nothing everyday. For me, I know it will never get any better. I hope I die before I have to go back to college.

hey, me too. I dropped out of college, now I just help my parents at their resturant. other than that, I do nothing at home. my future is pretty bleak. I feel like im done with myself, that I won't get better.