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sheleftme1

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Apr 29, 2023
77
So I'm done with waiting and I'm ready to end it. For some reason SI doesn't activate for me when taking things but nothing I've used has worked and SN is impossible to get without making my situation worse… but what about CN- I don't care about the pain… it will only last for a few. Im tired of this mental suffering
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I don't really know what CN is in the context of suicide but anyway I hope that you find the freedom you search for as it's very much understandable wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings. Existence really is so unnecessarily cruel, and I do get that it's so tiring feeling trapped here
 
AresCohere

AresCohere

Professional Insomniac
Apr 10, 2023
158
I don't really know what CN is in the context of suicide but anyway I hope that you find the freedom you search for as it's very much understandable wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings. Existence really is so unnecessarily cruel, and I do get that it's so tiring feeling trapped here
CN- is the chemical name for the Cyanide ion (One Carbon, One Nitrogen, negative charge)

Comes in several variants like sodium cyanide (NaCN) and hydrogen cyanide (HCN)
 
Not.Flugel

Not.Flugel

✨Invaild Pharmacy Student✨
May 7, 2023
93
The LD50 dose for CN- is around 1-3 mg per kilogram. And yes it's probably going to be painful.
There is a source of doubtable claim out there that Cyanide has a 97% chance of killing you but ranks 51/100 points for suffering.

However, it's possible to treat CN- poisoning. By using NO2-, we can create a similar effect like with SN poisoning methemoglobin which the CN- now create cyanmethemoglobin which can then be treated with methyl blue to make your body able to carry O2 again.

There are others like S2O3 2- which is used in the US. Or Hydroxocobalamin (Vitamin 12) which can be used to form cyanocobalamin to neutralize your CN-. However, other countries like for example Ireland does not have a standard anti CN- kit anymore.

The only upside I see is that CN- is very easily obtainable, although our labs contain almost all Suicide affinity salts like SN, SA or in this case CN.
 
Aisley

Aisley

Wizard
Mar 12, 2023
624
A little browsing here will show you far less painful yet still accessible methods. I get a full body cringe for every user who brings up cyanide.
 
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sheleftme1

Member
Apr 29, 2023
77
I don't care about the pain… I care about my personal ability to do things. The methods I'm more easily able to get out of the SI reflex is ingestable
 

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