Venting chronic everything flareup

[waistcoat]

please kill me

i wanted to sleep tonight, but my insomnia has decided that's not happening. i can't. i'm tired, but my mind is racing. im exhausted.

my intestinal issues and stomach are flaring up, im in a lot of pain from them and its very uncomfortable

my arthritis is flared up too. every movement is a click and painful. every joint. even not moving it aches. my knees, my legs, my arms, my hands, my fingers, my back, everything

my tendonitis is also flaring up so my tendons in my legs are fucked too and causing me a lot of pain

i took pain meds an hour ago but im still in a lot of pain

i hate this

i need it to stop
im disoriented and dizzy from the lack of sleep but even closing my eyes for an hour and im still awake

jm in so much pain its impossible to relax regardless of the insomnia

my body is failing

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so torturous what you go through, I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably, it's so cruel to me how there's all this extreme pain and suffering in existing, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[ElTopo]

please kill me

i wanted to sleep tonight, but my insomnia has decided that's not happening. i can't. i'm tired, but my mind is racing. im exhausted.

my intestinal issues and stomach are flaring up, im in a lot of pain from them and its very uncomfortable

my arthritis is flared up too. every movement is a click and painful. every joint. even not moving it aches. my knees, my legs, my arms, my hands, my fingers, my back, everything

my tendonitis is also flaring up so my tendons in my legs are fucked too and causing me a lot of pain

i took pain meds an hour ago but im still in a lot of pain

i hate this

i need it to stop
im disoriented and dizzy from the lack of sleep but even closing my eyes for an hour and im still awake

jm in so much pain its impossible to relax regardless of the insomnia

my body is failing

It sounds awful.
I hope you managed to fall asleep. Is your insomnia related to your physical conditions?

 

[waistcoat]

It sounds awful.
I hope you managed to fall asleep. Is your insomnia related to your physical conditions?

still haven't had any sleep, nearing 48h now,
my insomnia is known as 'chronic idopathic insomnia' which basically means i just have it, and always have, since at least 5/6 years old. it probably originated from trauma, that would make sense given my mental health conditions.

its not directly related to my physical conditions afaik but the chronic pain defintely does sometimes play a large part, but is not a primary part

idk if that made any sense, i'm hallucinating from lack of sleep and very disoriented
going to try sleep within the next hour or so by taking a tripple dose of my sleeping tablets

 

[ElTopo]

still haven't had any sleep, nearing 48h now,
my insomnia is known as 'chronic idopathic insomnia' which basically means i just have it, and always have, since at least 5/6 years old. it probably originated from trauma, that would make sense given my mental health conditions.

its not directly related to my physical conditions afaik but the chronic pain defintely does sometimes play a large part, but is not a primary part

idk if that made any sense, i'm hallucinating from lack of sleep and very disoriented
going to try sleep within the next hour or so by taking a tripple dose of my sleeping tablets

How is the pain going? Dud the painkillers work?

 

[waistcoat]

How is the pain going? Dud the painkillers work?

hiya, woke up around an hour ago, feel like i could sleep for another 20 hours tbh but i should get up.

pain is reduced, back to my baseline which is manageable.

 

[Nightfoot]

I hope you can find some relief soon, that sounds awful.

 

[biboro]

sending you spoons

 

[huifu]

insomnia has ruined my life
it's really hard, also the pain you're suffering too, i hope it got better by now, I'm glad you finally slept a little bit, sending you hugs