Chosen my method and set a date. End of September at Beachy Head.

[LastLoveLetter]

I have decided to make my plans more concrete by booking a hotel near Beachy Head for the end of September. I won't disclose the precise date for privacy reasons as I don't want my attempt to be interfered with in any way.

This date means that I have plenty of time to arrange my affairs in advance. It also means that if my circumstances change in any way (or if my method changes), I can cancel the reservation without being charged.

I have booked 1 night and have decided I will enjoy my final night to the best of my abilities. I'm going to have a nice meal, stroll along the seafront and try to make the most of my last day.

While the prospect of jumping is terrifying, I am glad that I can at least enjoy a meal and don't have to fast like I would have if I still had SN. I can savour my favourite foods one final time and admire the beautiful views before I go.

There is a sense of finality in being prepared. It's all planned and booked now.

If anything changes, I will post an update. Otherwise I'll say my goodbyes in September.

I don't look forward to dying, but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

 

[melwarson]

I have decided to make my plans more concrete by booking a hotel near Beachy Head for the end of September. I won't disclose the precise date for privacy reasons as I don't want my attempt to be interfered with in any way.

This date means that I have plenty of time to arrange my affairs in advance. It also means that if my circumstances change in any way (or if my method changes), I can cancel the reservation without being charged.

I have booked 1 night and have decided I will enjoy my final night to the best of my abilities. I'm going to have a nice meal, stroll along the seafront and try to make the most of my last day.

While the prospect of jumping is terrifying, I am glad that I can at least enjoy a meal and don't have to fast like I would have if I still had SN. I can savour my favourite foods one final time and admire the beautiful views before I go.

There is a sense of finality in being prepared. It's all planned and booked now.

If anything changes, I will post an update. Otherwise I'll say my goodbyes in September.

I don't look forward to dying, but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

Are you jumping from a bridge or a cliff? I hope you have made sure that it is a sufficient height. Prayers that you find peace.

 

[dory]

hoping the outcome is what you wanted and for peace! :)

 

[MrDarkness]

I hope you find peace, I'm glad to see you took time to get your life in order. Hopefully I'll make it to September

 

[MidnightCat]

I don't look forward to dying, but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

That's always sad to hear.

I hope something changes in the meantime and you get a second chance in life.

If not... I hope you have great days now on and have a wonderful last day.

Noone deserves to suffer indefinitely.

 

[Catastrofe]

It sounds like a good plan.
I hope you will get what you desire for yourself, somehow.

 

[CTB Dream]

Vry sry, this cruel lif make sffr, hope peace

 

[FireWalkWithMe]

Sorry to hear about your situation.

If you do go ahead with this, I hope you know exactly where to go from. Wouldn't want you throwing yourself off a part with a shallower angle and somehow miraculously surviving or bashing yourself on the way down and suffering unnecessarily.

 

[Emma.D]

I have decided to make my plans more concrete by booking a hotel near Beachy Head for the end of September. I won't disclose the precise date for privacy reasons as I don't want my attempt to be interfered with in any way.

This date means that I have plenty of time to arrange my affairs in advance. It also means that if my circumstances change in any way (or if my method changes), I can cancel the reservation without being charged.

I have booked 1 night and have decided I will enjoy my final night to the best of my abilities. I'm going to have a nice meal, stroll along the seafront and try to make the most of my last day.

While the prospect of jumping is terrifying, I am glad that I can at least enjoy a meal and don't have to fast like I would have if I still had SN. I can savour my favourite foods one final time and admire the beautiful views before I go.

There is a sense of finality in being prepared. It's all planned and booked now.

If anything changes, I will post an update. Otherwise I'll say my goodbyes in September.

I don't look forward to dying, but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

This is my method of choice. It's a beautiful, iconic place and you can't fail either due to the height of the cliff.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

Thank you all for the support. It's greatly appreciated.

I have planned everything:

- The date of the trip has been coincided with a time where I will still have adequate funds. No need to worry about an inability to pay for transport, food etc.

- My disabilities and chronic illnesses make travelling difficult. I will get taxis to and from train stations, to the seafront when I want to enjoy the sea one last time etc. Predicted costs have been calculated for this.

- Fatigue and pain have been taken into account. The first thing I intend to do upon check-in to the hotel is rest before I head to the seafront and enjoy my last dinner. If I'm in too much pain to go out, that's okay. There's room service and other options. I'll have a relaxing night and then ctb the next day after checking out.

- I will do more research to be certain, but have read that the best point to jump is near the lighthouse. There is a bus from Eastbourne that takes passengers very close to the top of Beachy Head. Some walking will be required to reach the best spot. I am planning to bring a walking aid and to take my time getting there.
The highest point of Beachy Head is 530 feet (162 metres). I'm not worried about surviving, even if I can't physically get to the highest point. Death is guaranteed as long as I jump from a sufficient height and don't get stopped by the chaplaincy team.

If things go wrong on the day, I have two back up methods:
- Shallow water blackout at sea.
- Ctb by train (as a final resort).

This seems like a reasonable plan to me but if anyone can suggest anything I may have left out or need to take into consideration, feel free to say so. I will firm up my itinerary nearer the date.

 

[my_sundown]

This

but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

 

[suicidalloser]

Well wishes, peace and freedom from all pain.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I thought about this a lot last week. The best place is where the cliffs are steepest so you don't hit anything sticking out on the way down.
There is a YouTube video of some basejumpers at beachy head. Find that same spot and you are good to go.
Probably best jumping at night time to avoid the fucktard chaplains. Bastard do-gooders they are.

 

[lebrodude]

I admire your bravery.
Jumping from the tallest cliffs at Beachy Head is pretty much as guaranteed as it gets.
Terrifying proposition though.

I hope whatever happens you find your peace.

 

[HerBetrayal_]

Sounds beautiful, wishing you peace.

 

[Wants-To-End]

Just take any Sedatives to not get scare at final point, Hope the Height is sufficient enough to end your life, Be careful, plan 1000 times before taking each step, we are trying to stop a Suffering but not to Increase it, So Careful - wishing you peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Jumping certainly sounds like a terrifying method to me as well, I think that those who ctb this way are courageous. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

Thank you all for the support. I'm planning this in as much detail as possible. Just bought my train ticket this morning, so that makes the journey feel more final.

I heard that the best place is between the 2 lighthouses. Just a little to the west of the red and white one. The Chaplaincy team drive about in marked cars but I think they more approach people who sit alone in their car or by the cliff edge for long periods looking contemplative.

Thank you Emma, this is really useful. I'm going to try to pinpoint the location on a map if I can. I imagine that if I'm wandering around looking for the right spot too much, this could be suspicious and I'm hoping to avoid catching the Chaplaincy team's attention if possible.

I thought about this a lot last week. The best place is where the cliffs are steepest so you don't hit anything sticking out on the way down.
There is a YouTube video of some basejumpers at beachy head. Find that same spot and you are good to go.
Probably best jumping at night time to avoid the fucktard chaplains. Bastard do-gooders they are.

This is very helpful. I'll look up that video and pinpoint the correct location on a map so that I know exactly where to go. Thank you.

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My biggest worry at the moment is the possibility of being paralyzed by fear. I'm not scared right now at the idea of jumping, but I can imagine that fear will kick in when I'm physically there.

I've considered the ideas of drinking alcohol and/or taking sedatives but I'm a bit worried about doing that. If my cognition is compromised, I'm concerned there's a greater risk I'll stumble instead of jumping properly, or attract suspicion if I'm drunk/sedated.

I'm hoping I'll be able to just do it if I don't dwell and move as quickly as I can. But there's always that possibility I'll freeze up and not be able to jump. Hoping I'll be able to overcome this if it happens.

 

[heavyeyes]

It's really good you're taking the time to plan all of this out throughly! I hope everything goes smoothly for you. I wish you peace on your journey <3

 

[sillycatforever]

i hope you find peace and everything goes smoothly

 

[angel31]

I am wishing u all the luck in the world and hope u can pass peacefully… this sounds like a really nice way to enjoy ur last day… Im sending u some big hugs and wish u the best and who knows, maybe ull even be better until september <333

 

[loserr]

I have decided to make my plans more concrete by booking a hotel near Beachy Head for the end of September. I won't disclose the precise date for privacy reasons as I don't want my attempt to be interfered with in any way.

This date means that I have plenty of time to arrange my affairs in advance. It also means that if my circumstances change in any way (or if my method changes), I can cancel the reservation without being charged.

I have booked 1 night and have decided I will enjoy my final night to the best of my abilities. I'm going to have a nice meal, stroll along the seafront and try to make the most of my last day.

While the prospect of jumping is terrifying, I am glad that I can at least enjoy a meal and don't have to fast like I would have if I still had SN. I can savour my favourite foods one final time and admire the beautiful views before I go.

There is a sense of finality in being prepared. It's all planned and booked now.

If anything changes, I will post an update. Otherwise I'll say my goodbyes in September.

I don't look forward to dying, but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

Happy for you! I hope that last day is the best ever

 

[Vivisection]

I don't look forward to dying, but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

This line hits really hard

Im sorry the world has been so cruel that you feel this way

I hope whether or not you go through with it you find peace

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best for your plans and may you find peace & freedom! Good luck!

 

[Emma.D]

I've got you on my mind and wanted to message you but I think you don't have DMs open. I feel anxious about what you say about overcoming SI. When I was thinking of jumping I took SI to mean my body's automatic reaction to potential harm eg: stopping myself jumping at the last second. I'm no expert but I don't see SI as being doubts about going through with it. If you feel doubts and have to push yourself to do it then DON'T DO IT. If you're scared and feel like that's preventing you then DON'T DO IT.
Secondly.. to be honest I want to retract what I said about the highest point etc. I don't want to present myself as an expert on the subject.. I'm not! I'm someone who has taken note of posts regarding Beachy head on here and remembered what I've picked up. So i have no idea if it's accurate. I have as much factual knowledge on the subject as anyone else. So please don't do anything based on what I've said. At the end of the day, all you can do is what I've done.. look at posts on the subject on here and come to a conclusion.
If you need to talk to someone who has felt the same as you, and has come out the other side then my DMs are open. I'll never tell you what to do but I'll understand.

 

[Decided98]

Wjats

I have decided to make my plans more concrete by booking a hotel near Beachy Head for the end of September. I won't disclose the precise date for privacy reasons as I don't want my attempt to be interfered with in any way.

This date means that I have plenty of time to arrange my affairs in advance. It also means that if my circumstances change in any way (or if my method changes), I can cancel the reservation without being charged.

I have booked 1 night and have decided I will enjoy my final night to the best of my abilities. I'm going to have a nice meal, stroll along the seafront and try to make the most of my last day.

While the prospect of jumping is terrifying, I am glad that I can at least enjoy a meal and don't have to fast like I would have if I still had SN. I can savour my favourite foods one final time and admire the beautiful views before I go.

There is a sense of finality in being prepared. It's all planned and booked now.

If anything changes, I will post an update. Otherwise I'll say my goodbyes in September.

I don't look forward to dying, but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

What's your method?
Oh sorry just reread everything I know now

 

[carac]

Best wishes for whatever you decide to do. If you are going through intoralable suffering and this is what you have decided then I completely empathise. If you are struggling with whatever though I would suggest speaking to Emma or likewise I am happy for you to contact me, I'm from the UK also. I struggled with the health services here a lot. I won't try to talk you out of anything

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Fuck man jumping from there sounds beautiful yet horrifying at the same time.
Also, beachy head is a popular location for jumpers, so there are lots of patrols. Arent you scared youll get caught?
I dont like jumping because im scared that it wont be instant and that I will feel a few seconds of mindbreaking pain

 

[90starve]

I have decided to make my plans more concrete by booking a hotel near Beachy Head for the end of September. I won't disclose the precise date for privacy reasons as I don't want my attempt to be interfered with in any way.

This date means that I have plenty of time to arrange my affairs in advance. It also means that if my circumstances change in any way (or if my method changes), I can cancel the reservation without being charged.

I have booked 1 night and have decided I will enjoy my final night to the best of my abilities. I'm going to have a nice meal, stroll along the seafront and try to make the most of my last day.

While the prospect of jumping is terrifying, I am glad that I can at least enjoy a meal and don't have to fast like I would have if I still had SN. I can savour my favourite foods one final time and admire the beautiful views before I go.

There is a sense of finality in being prepared. It's all planned and booked now.

If anything changes, I will post an update. Otherwise I'll say my goodbyes in September.

I don't look forward to dying, but I do look forward to quiet that follows.

it feels really great to have a concrete plan - i too have set a date and chosen a method, and have since found myself to feel, overall, more at ease with my own thoughts.

your last day sounds just perfect, and Beachy Head is such a beautiful cliff. wishing you the best <3

 

[getfree05]

Hope you find the peace you're looking for