OvertheRainbeaux
stuck down a rabbit hole of misery
- Jan 1, 2020
- 43
Hi guys, I've posted threads many times in the past I've actually been on here for years because I've never had the guts to do it. Now under different circumstances and knowing how alone I am, I feel like I'm ready and with that being said I was wondering do you guys think the best date (if there even is one) to CTB is your own birthday? Hear me out, I know there are a few people in my life who will be affected by my death.. at least I think.. who knows I don't want to hurt anyone if that's the case but I can't stick around and be miserable and hopeless just for the few people who are barely around. There's so many factors that go into this but anyways before I get off topic I've been trying to plan this out accordingly, I feel if I do this on my birthday it will be better because although people mourn you no matter the date, there wouldn't be as many reminders of my death if I chose my own birthday, think about it if I die on March 3rd and then my birthday is September 17th those are two dates that will come around and affect those people plus the holidays, so I'm thinking if I choose my birthday it will be just one date that I'll be remembered and what better date to die then your own date of birth? If there's only one date I came into this word and the same date is the date I leave then people will only ever get hit by that one day. Idk why I care about how others will feel anyways tbh I guess I've been so hurt by others and so lonely that I couldn't bear hurting others so I'm trying to lessen this blow as much as possible but yeah I'm sorry to ramble. What do you guys think? Do you get what I'm trying to say?
