• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

I

Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
Well I've checked into the hotel. In less than 24 hours I'll be mixing sn and drinking it so I guess I can start my goodbye thread. I'm nervous and scared. Hopefully I can beat my si. I said goodbye to my husband for the final time this morning and cried like a baby in the car. He is going to be devastated when he finds out I'm gone. I'll update this thread as the process continues. Right now I'm relaxing in the hotel room. I've started fasting as well. I'm scared to death of failing. As always I apologize in advance if I ramble. I'm planning on drinking sn no later than 3 pm tomorrow afternoon. Thank you all on this forum for your support over the past year. I'm feeling guilty because my husband is very supportive but I can't go on anymore.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: leeloosnow, stafbt, akana and 47 others
notlongnow

notlongnow

Student
Aug 16, 2022
138
Well I've checked into the hotel. In less than 24 hours I'll be mixing sn and drinking it so I guess I can start my goodbye thread. I'm nervous and scared. Hopefully I can beat my si. I said goodbye to my husband for the final time this morning and cried like a baby in the car. He is going to be devastated when he finds out I'm gone. I'll update this thread as the process continues. Right now I'm relaxing in the hotel room. I've started fasting as well. I'm scared to death of failing. As always I apologize in advance if I ramble. I'm planning on drinking sn no later than 3 pm tomorrow afternoon. Thank you all on this forum for your support over the past year. I'm feeling guilty because my husband is very supportive but I can't go on anymore.
Bless you. I hope youre in comfort ❤
 
  • Love
Reactions: waitingforrest, ojinzo, DreamSurfer and 4 others
Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,558
I hope you find peace.
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: waitingforrest, ojinzo, DreamSurfer and 3 others
Finding Sirius

Finding Sirius

The brightest lights cast the darkest shadows
Aug 16, 2022
162
I hope you enjoy your final moments, safe travels to the otherside.
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: darksapo, ojinzo, not-2-b-the-answer and 2 others
botch3d

botch3d

Student
Sep 17, 2022
112
Good luck to you , I hope it is peaceful for you
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: ojinzo, not-2-b-the-answer, Sick of it all and 1 other person
universe

universe

Experienced
Jul 15, 2022
241
Well I've checked into the hotel. In less than 24 hours I'll be mixing sn and drinking it so I guess I can start my goodbye thread. I'm nervous and scared. Hopefully I can beat my si. I said goodbye to my husband for the final time this morning and cried like a baby in the car. He is going to be devastated when he finds out I'm gone. I'll update this thread as the process continues. Right now I'm relaxing in the hotel room. I've started fasting as well. I'm scared to death of failing. As always I apologize in advance if I ramble. I'm planning on drinking sn no later than 3 pm tomorrow afternoon. Thank you all on this forum for your support over the past year. I'm feeling guilty because my husband is very supportive but I can't go on anymore.
I hope everything will be fine for you, no matter what. May you find peace
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: ojinzo, not-2-b-the-answer, Sick of it all and 1 other person
hamvil

hamvil

Wizard
Aug 29, 2022
650
Well I've checked into the hotel. In less than 24 hours I'll be mixing sn and drinking it so I guess I can start my goodbye thread. I'm nervous and scared. Hopefully I can beat my si. I said goodbye to my husband for the final time this morning and cried like a baby in the car. He is going to be devastated when he finds out I'm gone. I'll update this thread as the process continues. Right now I'm relaxing in the hotel room. I've started fasting as well. I'm scared to death of failing. As always I apologize in advance if I ramble. I'm planning on drinking sn no later than 3 pm tomorrow afternoon. Thank you all on this forum for your support over the past year. I'm feeling guilty because my husband is very supportive but I can't go on anymore.
Envy you a bit. Wish you all the best.
 
  • Love
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Hollowillow, not-2-b-the-answer, farakini and 2 others
Fktw0rld

Fktw0rld

An end with suffering > Suffering without an end
Aug 29, 2022
404
I wish you a calm, cool and collected remainder of your day. And the most peaceful and painless exit from this shit life into total relief and nothingness. I hope to be joining you soon via sn. If your si is overpowering it's ok. Just come back and hang out until the day you're able to defeat it.

Love and respect 🙏
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: MountainMonkey, ojinzo, 1000winds and 5 others
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,380
I wish you freedom from this cruel existence.
 
  • Love
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: MountainMonkey, ojinzo, makethepainstop and 5 others
hunterfla

hunterfla

Experienced
Sep 13, 2022
227
Best wishes. I'll be doing the same soon. If you want someone to talk to in your final hours, feel free to message me.
 
  • Love
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: MountainMonkey, ojinzo, jodes2 and 5 others
hey.howare.u

hey.howare.u

Member
Sep 3, 2022
17
I hope you achieve what you want and find peace with life
 
  • Love
Reactions: ojinzo, not-2-b-the-answer and IchigoYozora
J

Jimblue

Student
Sep 10, 2022
199
Best wish for your journey and I wish you find the peace no matter which direction you choose. Send my love.
 
  • Love
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: not-2-b-the-answer, Sick of it all and IchigoYozora
Zhendou

Zhendou

Alive
Sep 17, 2022
107
Best wishes and safe travels.
 
  • Love
  • Hugs
Reactions: not-2-b-the-answer and IchigoYozora
I

IchigoYozora

Member
Sep 17, 2022
11
Hope you find your peace and good luck.
 
  • Love
Reactions: not-2-b-the-answer
reverse03

reverse03

Departing. Goodbye
Sep 11, 2022
153
May you have peace and joy in your heart.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: not-2-b-the-answer, Zhendou and IchigoYozora
F

Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,156
You've been in my thoughts a lot today. I know none of us really know one another but it feels as though we are all on the same weary path. I wish you all the best. Did you go out for that burger? I hope it was nice.
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: SadVegan, 1000winds, makethepainstop and 3 others
J

JayLa16

Member
Jul 20, 2022
43
I hope everything goes the way you want it to. Safe travels, peace and love be with you ❤
 
  • Love
Reactions: not-2-b-the-answer
J

jk9761

Experienced
Jul 25, 2022
289
RIP
 
  • Love
Reactions: jodes2 and not-2-b-the-answer
not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
10,508
Wishing you peace and love on your journey to the next chapter. :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart:
 
  • Love
Reactions: jodes2
R

rmack88

Member
Aug 30, 2022
14
Wishing you a safe journey.
 
  • Love
Reactions: SadVegan and not-2-b-the-answer
Euthanza

Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
1,447
It's nice to know you, you've tried what you could and it's not your fault that everything must come to an end, this might be the best way for your own good as you decided to be free. Good bye my friend, farewell and peace be upon you ❤
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: jusbug and Finding Sirius
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,917
I hope all went well for you and you got to that peace you deserve.
 
  • Love
Reactions: jodes2
makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
Most people walking the earth cannot understand our pain and the torture life brings to folks like us. I hope you find peace, love and happiness.
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: Midnight-rain, Sammie, LonelyandAlone and 2 others
Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
I read your posts and I hope that your adventure will end well.

Please forgive my rudeness & memory problems, but can you remind me of your reasons? Do you have physical pain like me? exhaustion of it all?

I started considering SN. I just read that hanging cause quick lack of oxygen & causes damage. But SN is so slow & gentle that we're ok until everything shuts down. We can even be rescued without brain damage & psralyzis. The downside would be vomiting, but we can make a 2nd attempt right away, unlike paralyzis. So... While there are failures, it's said to have a great chance of success. Can even kill if we taste it, so we must not.

I hope you'll have a gentle end, gentle lady. I wish it to you with all my heart. Thank you for letting us accompany you on this journey.
 
  • Love
Reactions: makethepainstop, SadVegan and jodes2
J

jk9761

Experienced
Jul 25, 2022
289
thanks for your thoughts
 
  • Love
Reactions: jodes2
H

Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
Wishing you the very, very best, no matter what you decide xx
 
  • Love
Reactions: ojinzo and jodes2
wljourney

wljourney

Waiting for the bus
Apr 2, 2022
1,419
How are you doing today? I hope you are alright and at peace with your decision. I am so very sorry you have come to this point and I wish you well on your journey. Hugs.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: ojinzo, Forever Sleep, Hope:-) and 1 other person
I

Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
I'm a fucking pathetic wimp. I'm not doing it today. I checked out of the hotel this morning. I'm sorry for disappointing everyone. I was so sure that I was going to go through with it. I guess it's si. I feel horrible this morning about it. Fuck, I want to die but my body is saying no. I hate this.. I'm sorry.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: RW__Asher23, Pubert, MountainMonkey and 26 others
Install-Gentoo

Install-Gentoo

.
Aug 23, 2022
195
Survival instinct is a very strong thing. You are not weak for not overcoming it.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: ojinzo, miserableforever, SadVegan and 2 others

Similar threads

usernamesarehard
Replies
2
Views
192
Recovery
usernamesarehard
usernamesarehard
catfriend
Replies
38
Views
3K
Suicide Discussion
maniac116
maniac116
Droso
Replies
6
Views
347
Suicide Discussion
cemeteryismyhome
cemeteryismyhome
ketopia
Replies
17
Views
699
Suicide Discussion
EmptyBottle
EmptyBottle
hedezev4
Replies
7
Views
683
Suicide Discussion
spero_meliora
spero_meliora