Story Changing plans and struggling

[ArchmagePrincess]

Was struggling to find sources that would sell to an individual for SN, so I think I'm gonna change gears and start preparing and reading about inert gas/exit bag. It seems a lot more complicated and expensive than SN at first glance. It'll take me a bit to save up for everything.

Both jobs I have started cutting down hours just to save money on payroll so now I need to get a third job to pay rent and save up for a cylinder, regulator, etc. so that's just wonderful. I've been at my limit for this ridiculous world for quite some time now but I need to keep pressing onward and soon find my peace. I'm absolutely exhausted but the end is thankfully near. I'm looking forward to the day I can finally stop fighting, stuff my face full of cookies as a last meal, and just be done with all this bullshit.

I gotta thank many of you for your wisdom and compassion. Reading words of sympathy and understanding have really helped me keep calm during all this stress.

 

[Huntfish34]

I completely understand,. right there with you sadly. Sick and tired of being sick and Fckn tired. Tired of fighting, life on life's terms... Everything for the most part .

Thank you for sharing,. Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen. -

 

[Zegers]

Sorry for your situation. Three jobs to buy something to ctb... life for some people is a sick joke.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is so unfair how people have to struggle so much in planning their death when they are already tired, I hate this pro suffering society that tries to force people to endure this existence until they die from old age. There should be some sort of acceptance of the fact that for many people life is not worth living and that suicide is a more preferable option for them. It must be really tiring what you are going through, your feelings of wanting to escape from it all are understandable, to me there is nothing more ideal than finally leaving this world. I wish you freedom.

 

[lifeORdeath]

I bet a go fund me to ctb wouldn't go over to well..lol

 

[ArchmagePrincess]

It really is so unfair how people have to struggle so much in planning their death when they are already tired, I hate this pro suffering society that tries to force people to endure this existence until they die from old age. There should be some sort of acceptance of the fact that for many people life is not worth living and that suicide is a more preferable option for them. It must be really tiring what you are going through, your feelings of wanting to escape from it all are understandable, to me there is nothing more ideal than finally leaving this world. I wish you freedom.

I'm exhausted as it is for sure, and I agree and wish people didn't take such a black and white approach to whether or not life is worth living for some people. I can hardly handle doing this for the time I'll need to prepare for my exit let alone dying of old age.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

...............let alone dying of old age.

Perish the thought.