Cbf poem

[kitkatt]

Why I am scared of the pain

When life has only ever hurt

Why do I hesitate even after a life of only miserable

They say I'm not positive

But I've always been a leaky vessel

I've tried to keep myself full even though I can't stop it from flowing out

I'll finally allow myself weakness

I'll push my body where it no longer resists what my brain has been begging for

I'll stop being scared of the small hurt in the sea of pain to make sure I can be laid to peace.

I'll stop my terminal illness. We can't both exist and only one of us is suffering.

I know what the cure is for my pain

I'll find the courage

Because my heart was not made for me and it cannot hold on here in misery any longer.

I'll carry my love for the good in the world to my grave and I shall love eternal in peace for you all when you cannot.

I'll crucify myself for the hope of the world.

I'll bare myself and all that I am to the universe and ask for others still for I am not worthy.

A broken vessel who can no longer exist.

I'm not for here and if life beyond exists let it be every thing I've ever wanted.