Catching the bus in a dorm - where do you plan to ctb?

[bdtbath]

Ive been having urges to try partial suspension hanging (with a belt? Is this doable) a shot but I haven't been able to nut up yet. I don't drink or do drugs but Im thinking this would give me the courage to try it. There's not much holding me back except the fact my roommate would find me maybe an hour or so later. He isn't leaving for Thanksgiving break so Im sol probably.

I don't think it would be fair to make him discover my body so maybe I will get a hotel room during Christmas break. Aside from that, no one else would know, and I know for sure no one else cares. My parents are dead, and I have no other family that checks in on me.

Where do you plan to ctb? what would you do in my situation? How has your day been?

 

[TheCyberian]

I'm planning to CTB in my bedroom on the floor or maybe in my bed. I live alone and it's not unusual for people to not hear from me for days at a time, so I'm fortunate in that regard. I would personally opt for a hotel room if I didn't have that kind of privacy though.

 

[Domimi]

Probably in the woods near some river. I always wanted my body to be eaten by predators or something like that instead of being buried or cremated. At least I'm satisfying some creature's hunger and being useful and altruistic for once LOL

 

[botch3d]

Ive been having urges to try partial suspension hanging (with a belt? Is this doable) a shot but I haven't been able to nut up yet. I don't drink or do drugs but Im thinking this would give me the courage to try it. There's not much holding me back except the fact my roommate would find me maybe an hour or so later. He isn't leaving for Thanksgiving break so Im sol probably.

I don't think it would be fair to make him discover my body so maybe I will get a hotel room during Christmas break. Aside from that, no one else would know, and I know for sure no one else cares. My parents are dead, and I have no other family that checks in on me.

Where do you plan to ctb? what would you do in my situation? How has your day been?

Hey, how old are you ? What kind of dorm is it? Must be rough not having any family check in on you…. Are you healthy otherwise ? Maybe there is another way for you ?

 

[bdtbath]

Hey, how old are you ? What kind of dorm is it? Must be rough not having any family check in on you…. Are you healthy otherwise ? Maybe there is another way for you ?

I'm a grown man trying to find the will to live at college. Physically healthy so there probably is hope but it sure as hell doesn't feel like it. I'm really hoping there is a way out because I am sick of just feeling numb, like a prisoner of a chemical imbalance. There is very little to look forward to in my future. Furthermore, I
never asked to exist.

I have wanted to die for a while now, and the meds I just started several weeks ago fill me with resolve. I think night-night and partial hanging seem the most appealing. The problem is that I am too much of a god damn coward.

 

[Cryptonite]

Same place as you.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Beachy head cliffs.

 

[EnlightenedDeath]

Where do you plan to ctb? what would you do in my situation? How has your day been?

My plan is to ctb in my own bed, snuggled up in a blanket and listening to a playlist I have been adding songs to on YouTube. I live alone and the timing of my plan will give me about 36 hours before someone would come looking since it would be me failing to show up to work that will start the discovery process.

If I was in your situation, I would most certainly go with the hotel room option. It would be about 24 hours before your roommate can make a missing persons report so that would buy you some time and he would not be the one to discover you. You would have to worry about hotel staff coming in but if you ctb in the late evening, it would give you plenty of hours before housekeeping would enter to discover you.

 

[brdhndz]

If you are concerned about the well-being of whoever finds your body it might be good- if you go the hotel route- to leave a little note just inside the door of your room telling them to call authorities. Otherwise it will probably be a 17 year old housekeeper that finds you which is also probably not ideal.

 

[NeverEndingPain]

I'm planning to CTB in my bedroom on the floor or maybe in my bed. I live alone and it's not unusual for people to not hear from me for days at a time, so I'm fortunate in that regard. I would personally opt for a hotel room if I didn't have that kind of privacy though.

I'm worried about not being found for days or until someone smells me
I live alone and worry no one will check.
I guess if I'm dead I don't have to worry about it though. I won't know anything anymore. I just really didn't want to leave a smelly body in the house for anyone to clean up. It's such a sad thought to think of anyone in that state. I am at least going to put on an adult diaper cause I hear about the pooping and urine thing. Ugh

 

[thymonkey4]

Probably in a forest or something for me.

 

[The Eeyorish One]

For me personally, I plan to either get a hotel room or a storage unit for the deed. To me this hopefully reduces the amount of people affected, especially people that I care about. The plan would be to have no one stumble across me before authorities are notified and then let them handle it, without some poor sap having to be scarred by seeing a body.

In your situation I definitely wouldn't do it while your roommate is there, as that is unfair to him but could also lead to being "saved" and winding up a vegetable. Alcohol and other drugs are a mixed bag, it may give you courage, it may make you make mistakes, or it could just make you fall asleep, so take that as you will. I don't know your life so I can't offer anything specific, but just I hope somehow things turn around for you.

I get it though. For me at least, my days are filled with isolation and self loathing, and I waffle between being active or passive in wanting to ctb. I've tried all the meds and therapy and whatnot. I never have the courage, energy, or resources it seems to go through with it though. Today was at least ok for me by my standards. Just spent the day distracting myself, it's how I get by.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I'm doing it in a hotel room so my husband won't have to find my body.

 

[StrangeAndDeath]

Me too, dude. Me too.

I'm a grown man trying to find the will to live at college. Physically healthy so there probably is hope but it sure as hell doesn't feel like it. I'm really hoping there is a way out because I am sick of just feeling numb, like a prisoner of a chemical imbalance. There is very little to look forward to in my future. Furthermore, I
never asked to exist.

I have wanted to die for a while now, and the meds I just started several weeks ago fill me with resolve. I think night-night and partial hanging seem the most appealing. The problem is that I am too much of a god damn coward.

 

[aladdin]

In my bedroom. I should have a little over 12 hours before someone checks on me.

 

[sevenkarmas]

National Park primitive camp site.

 

[actual_fox]

Probably in the woods near some river. I always wanted my body to be eaten by predators or something like that instead of being buried or cremated. At least I'm satisfying some creature's hunger and being useful and altruistic for once LOL

That is wild. You will have burial worthy of a witcher.
I was planning forest. Nobody walks there at 3am and I would be found 1 or 2 days later and police would inform family.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm worried about not being found for days or until someone smells me
I live alone and worry no one will check.
I guess if I'm dead I don't have to worry about it though. I won't know anything anymore. I just really didn't want to leave a smelly body in the house for anyone to clean up. It's such a sad thought to think of anyone in that state. I am at least going to put on an adult diaper cause I hear about the pooping and urine thing. Ugh

Can you send out a delayed email to inform authorities? That's what I would have to do also as I'm in the same situation as you. Probably best to write the note as an attachment to the email though- as I've heard email providers scan emails for keywords like 'suicide.' That said, even that isn't easy. Looked myself the other day and it's mostly phone numbers where I live. Nearest I could find was the police commissioner! Oh well- they'd just have to forward it on I guess. That or I guess you could send a delayed email to someone you trust to alert the authorities.

Probably in the woods near some river. I always wanted my body to be eaten by predators or something like that instead of being buried or cremated. At least I'm satisfying some creature's hunger and being useful and altruistic for once LOL

Know what you mean- giving back to the earth, circle of life type idea. Guessing you're not opting for poisoning in this case? Not sure if that would end up killing your diners as well?

Ive been having urges to try partial suspension hanging (with a belt? Is this doable) a shot but I haven't been able to nut up yet. I don't drink or do drugs but Im thinking this would give me the courage to try it. There's not much holding me back except the fact my roommate would find me maybe an hour or so later. He isn't leaving for Thanksgiving break so Im sol probably.

I don't think it would be fair to make him discover my body so maybe I will get a hotel room during Christmas break. Aside from that, no one else would know, and I know for sure no one else cares. My parents are dead, and I have no other family that checks in on me.

Where do you plan to ctb? what would you do in my situation? How has your day been?

I'm sorry life has brought you here. It's kind of you to consider your flatmate and I agree with you and others here- a hotel sounds better plus, putting a note on a chair or across the hall to stop cleaners coming straight in but to call the authorities instead.

If I ever summon the courage, I live alone- so ok there. Probably go on my bed on a large sheet of thick polythene and inform authorities via delayed email. I'd still put a note on my bedroom door to warn them though including my method- likely SN- so they might know more what to expect (and that they don't need any special PPE to protect themseles.)

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that if someone is planning to ctb, I believe that they should do it somewhere where they basically have no chance of having their plans interfered with and are undisturbed for a significant amount of time. That is the important thing to me as failing ctb sounds so horrific, and I wouldn't personally risk trying the hanging method in a place where you would likely be found an hour later, it does sound risky to me.