Catching that bus! (sn)

[Cheers]

I'll be going a bit ahead of schedule bc i'm already sleepy and my stomach keeps growling at me (i was early on the fasting so no problem with going out earlier). Thus, i just took the painkillers and meclizine (the latter is going to make me even more drowsy tho)

 

[bed]

I'll be going a bit ahead of schedule bc i'm already sleepy and my stomach keeps growling at me (i was early on the fasting so no problem with going out earlier). Thus, i just took the painkillers and meclizine (the latter is going to make me even more drowsy tho)

i hope you find peace <3

 

[Brokensaddle]

Goodbye and safe journey. I hope your find the peace and rest that you couldn't get in life

 

[Cheers]

Just took the benzo

Edit: i also take this opportunity to thank everyone who took the time to react/answer to this thread, it really helps immensely! Also thank you to all the admins/mods allowing this site to exist, this is needed and i'm really grateful i found this place even though i didn't stick around that much.

 

[deaddroid]

Good luck <3

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

Hey, I really want to wish you the best during your journey to the other side.
It's all going to be ok now <3

 

[Cheers]

Took antacid like 10-15min ago
Now drinking sn
I got two glasses
Taste very salty, bad after taste but clearly not as bad as some have made it sound
I sat down in an arm chair, kinda dizzy
Not exactly vertigo but i feel out of it
My throat is slighty burning but is okay
My heart is beating a bit faster but not so loud
I feel sluggish, like my limbs weigh a ton
For the taste sucking on a hard candy does the trick for me
I also i breathe just fine no pb here
It's been like Five min, typing is a biy hard i feel heavy
I think imma pass out
Doggy i xa't't
Ears rinfing feelinfn very hot

 

[Idontmatter]

Took antacid like 10-15min ago
Now drinking sn
I got two glasses
Taste very salty, bad after taste but clearly not as bad as some have made it sound
I sat down in an arm chair, kinda dizzy
Not exactly vertigo but i feel out of it
My throat is slighty burning but is okay
My heart is beating a bit faster but not so loud
I feel sluggish, like my limbs weigh a ton
For the taste sucking on a hard candy does the trick for me
I also i breathe just fine no pb here
It's been like Five min, typing is a biy hard i feel heavy
I think imma pass out
Doggy i xa't't
Ears rinfing feelinfn very hot

RIP. Thank you for sharing your experience. It gives me hope that mine will work out ok.

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

Took antacid like 10-15min ago
Now drinking sn
I got two glasses
Taste very salty, bad after taste but clearly not as bad as some have made it sound
I sat down in an arm chair, kinda dizzy
Not exactly vertigo but i feel out of it
My throat is slighty burning but is okay
My heart is beating a bit faster but not so loud
I feel sluggish, like my limbs weigh a ton
For the taste sucking on a hard candy does the trick for me
I also i breathe just fine no pb here
It's been like Five min, typing is a biy hard i feel heavy
I think imma pass out
Doggy i xa't't
Ears rinfing feelinfn very hot

Looks like your suffering is finally over.
May you finally have the peace you were longing for <3

 

[bed]

Rest in peace. I hope you are no longer suffering.

 

[ikadasui]

If you're no longer with us, then I hope you're at peace now, friend. See ya on the otherside, cheers

 

[aminend]

Rest in peace. U did that finally. U are so brave.

 

[Truck-kun]

Rest in peace, thank you for being with us. I guess this is what I might experience later today.

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

The second you start seeing typos, you know is their time. Is sad, but I hope she is better now.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Took antacid like 10-15min ago
Now drinking sn
I got two glasses
Taste very salty, bad after taste but clearly not as bad as some have made it sound
I sat down in an arm chair, kinda dizzy
Not exactly vertigo but i feel out of it
My throat is slighty burning but is okay
My heart is beating a bit faster but not so loud
I feel sluggish, like my limbs weigh a ton
For the taste sucking on a hard candy does the trick for me
I also i breathe just fine no pb here
It's been like Five min, typing is a biy hard i feel heavy
I think imma pass out
Doggy i xa't't
Ears rinfing feelinfn very hot

rip It was nice knowing you. I wish I could have spoken with you before you go.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK I wish I was there. You seamed so nice.
I wish you peace <3

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

rip It was nice knowing you. I wish I could have spoken with you before you go.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK I wish I was there. You seamed so nice.
I wish you peace <3

It never gets easier, all I think of is "FUCK, man" when I see this ones, is so fuck*ng sad, man I have seen many goodbyes and they all hurt because one knows they went through a lot of pain and this is not the first solution that one has. They were pushed and is so depressing. I wish her the absolute best.

 

[fox_wannabe]

It never gets easier, all I think of is "FUCK, man" when I see this ones, is so fuck*ng sad, man I have seen many goodbyes and they all hurt because one knows they went through a lot of pain and this is not the first solution that one has. They were pushed and is so depressing. I wish her the absolute best.

Me too man. poor soul, I hope she wasn't stressed during ctb.
I wish to say goodbye to those people, without forcing them to do or not do anything. The same way I wish to say goodbye to you all before my bus arrives.

 

[ikadasui]

This stuff really drives home how terryfing it can be. The people undergoing this have no choice but to do it alone as anyone nearby would intervene and make their situation worse. It's so sad how we have to suffer and die in silence and alone

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

RIP.

 

[existtosuffer]

Hopefully there will be a time where people don't have to go through the intensity in choosing what is right for their own life.

I can only imagine how difficult it is to overcome SI even after ingesting SN. Your SI is literally you breathing on autopilot.

I'm glad you had a space to talk about it here without having any interventions. This place is much better than the Samaritans.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

Rip

 

[Labean]

I really hope that you have found peace.

 

[Kennish]

I hope you found peace

 

[shush]

safe travels. hope you found peace, dear stranger ❤

 

[Someone123]

She seemed to find peace. It's extremely sad that such a kind, intelligent, and caring person ended up not finding a path to happiness in this world. Of course similar thoughts apply to everyone else here- it's always sad when things fall apart for any person.

 

[Ethereal Knight]

Please excuse me if this come across wrong.
However I do like to hear of people booking hotels to CTB in.
I mean I feel it's extremely unfair on the people that have to find you not to mention the negative impact on the business itself.
I'm not judging just voicing my opinion.
I'll be doing mine at home.
It's still unfair on those that will find me but that's going to family most likely anyway and at best professionals who are trained to deal with these things.
I don't mean to sound critical I just genuinely feel for the people who could be traumatised unnecessarily.
This world dishes out enough trauma we don't need exacerbate it even more.

I think the exact opposite: it's easier to deal with the trauma of finding a corpse when it's a stranger instead of a close family member. I think it would be more traumatizing if you found your own daughter dead than it would be if you found a stranger dead while you're working on a hotel. but it's just my impression.

anyway, rest in peace @Cheers, you're sure gonna have the rest and the peace that you wanted.
I love your phrase:suicide is self-care
it really is.

 

[carredan81]

Took antacid like 10-15min ago
Now drinking sn
I got two glasses
Taste very salty, bad after taste but clearly not as bad as some have made it sound
I sat down in an arm chair, kinda dizzy
Not exactly vertigo but i feel out of it
My throat is slighty burning but is okay
My heart is beating a bit faster but not so loud
I feel sluggish, like my limbs weigh a ton
For the taste sucking on a hard candy does the trick for me
I also i breathe just fine no pb here
It's been like Five min, typing is a biy hard i feel heavy
I think imma pass out
Doggy i xa't't
Ears rinfing feelinfn very hot

I don't know who this person is. A total stranger to me. I cried heavily reading this, my heartaches. But, I am happy knowing you found peace at last from this hectic world. I hope I can have the courage soon to find it too. Thank you for sharing your final moments here.

 

[aristotle is ok]

tonight is probly the night for me...thanks to everyone.best of luck...my typing sucks b/c I broke my neck 12 yrs ago & i can only use 1 finger per hand.. so I just mixes 2 glasses of solution. 1 tbsp of SN & 1 13-11/2 tbsp water. they are both on my hospital desk"?? it's a rolling cart type of thing for using as a table... I ate some tomatoes & salad dressing abut 3 hrs ago I guess. I'm drinking whiskey & ginger ale, I'm intoxicated, nodding off now & then... watching TV 'crime dramas'...'evil lives here', b/c ther's nothing good on & i don't wish to hear any more about Ukraine. I won't be here long enuf to see trump & all hiss assoc & kids put in jail. I regret that.
Thanks for all your loe and advice. I really really really hope that allnof you whon are youngr than 55 or so will reconsider, you never know, and most likely, b/c of all your bad awful experiences, if you hang aroun, more than ikely from now on things will et better for you. I'm 69. wouldd have made it to 70 by september 23, but, i went to a new dr 2 wks ago asking for some Vicodin or percocet for the pain, but she was afraid & thought I waas jst another drug addict. So I am somewhat angry w/ the system, & i refuse to be abused any further by the grifters wearing robes& carrying staffs & caducciaie, like judges & holy men...BTW, never trust anyone who has to wear a robe to proclaim their right to run your life. I will stay online for a while...it's 9pm EST, phila time... so i welcome feedback & I'll try to write more as the night wears on... I haven't taken the SN yet, i have the 2 glasses next to me, hopefully dissolving. i used 1 tbls of SN plus 1 1/2 tbsp of water for each glass. I have a bucket next to my bed. I don't have a real antiemetic, just something from a hallway neighbor who takes these orange pills for schizophrenia. I looked it up a couple months ago & there's some antiemetic properties to these pills, I forget what they're called.

 

[Graytaichi]

tonight is probly the night for me...thanks to everyone.best of luck...my typing sucks b/c I broke my neck 12 yrs ago & i can only use 1 finger per hand.. so I just mixes 2 glasses of solution. 1 tbsp of SN & 1 13-11/2 tbsp water. they are both on my hospital desk"?? it's a rolling cart type of thing for using as a table... I ate some tomatoes & salad dressing abut 3 hrs ago I guess. I'm drinking whiskey & ginger ale, I'm intoxicated, nodding off now & then... watching TV 'crime dramas'...'evil lives here', b/c ther's nothing good on & i don't wish to hear any more about Ukraine. I won't be here long enuf to see trump & all hiss assoc & kids put in jail. I regret that.
Thanks for all your loe and advice. I really really really hope that allnof you whon are youngr than 55 or so will reconsider, you never know, and most likely, b/c of all your bad awful experiences, if you hang aroun, more than ikely from now on things will et better for you. I'm 69. wouldd have made it to 70 by september 23, but, i went to a new dr 2 wks ago asking for some Vicodin or percocet for the pain, but she was afraid & thought I waas jst another drug addict. So I am somewhat angry w/ the system, & i refuse to be abused any further by the grifters wearing robes& carrying staffs & caducciaie, like judges & holy men...BTW, never trust anyone who has to wear a robe to proclaim their right to run your life. I will stay online for a while...it's 9pm EST, phila time... so i welcome feedback & I'll try to write more as the night wears on... I haven't taken the SN yet, i have the 2 glasses next to me, hopefully dissolving. i used 1 tbls of SN plus 1 1/2 tbsp of water for each glass. I have a bucket next to my bed. I don't have a real antiemetic, just something from a hallway neighbor who takes these orange pills for schizophrenia. I looked it up a couple months ago & there's some antiemetic properties to these pills, I forget what they're called.

Are u saying you are ctbing in hospital , u need at least 12 hrs of not being found

 

[aristotle is ok]

nope...my own room in a bldg. Ive been here 6 yrs. nobody bother me