Catching that bus! (sn)

[Cheers]

Welcome to my soon-to-be goodbye thread!
I'm planning to ctb on Saturday night with sn i bought from china, here's my protocol summarised (CEST):
• 3-4pm start water fasting
• 10pm start dry fasting
• 11pm 1000mg paracetamol + 320mg spasfon (for stomach cramps) + 75mg meclizine
• 11:30pm 1mg alprazolam
• 11:45pm 3 Rennie antacid
• 00:00 20g sn in about 50ml lukewarm water

So i'll be leaving home on Saturday morning and i'll go to the next city. I'll try to enjoy the day though i know i'm gonna be impatient as fuck. I'll check into my hotel room in the afternoon and prepare everything. I have 4 x 20g sn in small ziplock bags, i'll make two glasses to begin with so i'll have an immediate backup if i throw up, but there's still more (also got hard candy for the taste). I blood tested my sn twice and it turned dark brown everytime so it should be good. I'll sit back in an armchair to avoid choking on my vomit while unconscious. I shouldn't be bothered in the middle of the night in a hotel room and probably won't be found until late into the morning.
I will clear all my browsing history then log back here through an incognito tab i can close at the last minute. This way i can try to keep you guys updated for as long as possible.

Don't say goodbye just yet but please do point out any weak spot in my plan (aside from the lack of meto, ik ik) or if you have any advice! I'm really trying to convince myself it's as foolproof as can be but i'm really nervous, failure isn't an option, any help is welcome

Thanks everyone!
Cheers

 

[roping]

goodluck :D

 

[wereqryan]

Just two hours of dry fasting?

 

[Kennish]

I don't understand the fasting. Isn't it 4-8 hours of fasting? With food? Ain't you allowed to drink a little water?

Stans guide say properly fasting (8 hours) or if you feel that your stomach is empty in 4 hours, that's good. No liquids 2 hours before SN. If you need to, then only water

 

[Cheers]

Just two hours of dry fasting?

I don't understand the fasting. Isn't it 4-8 hours of fasting? With food? Ain't you allowed to drink a little water?

Stan's guide recommends 8h without food while also withdrawing fluids for the last 2h (aside what's needed to take the meds), which is what i'm doing
Water fast = only consuming water
Dry fast = nothing at all

Should be good, right?

 

[Kennish]

Stan's guide recommends 8h without food while also withdrawing fluids for the last 2h (aside what's needed to take the meds), which is what i'm doing
Water fast = only consuming water
Dry fast = nothing at all

Should be good, right?

Okay I understand now

 

[wereqryan]

Stan's guide recommends 8h without food while also withdrawing fluids for the last 2h (aside what's needed to take the meds), which is what i'm doing
Water fast = only consuming water
Dry fast = nothing at all

Should be good, right?

You're good. I misunderstood you.

 

[Cheers]

You're good. I misunderstood you.

Thanks for confirming, and it's my bad i was unclear

 

[deaddroid]

Where did you purchase your SN? I have tried partial suspension and it didn't work out so I'm thinking of using SN.
Thank you

 

[fox_wannabe]

But can I say goodbye just in case?

 

[blueclover_.]

Are you still here? I hope you'll find the peace you're looking for. You sound like the type of person i'd love to hangout with.

 

[Jenjoh2358]

Just like deceased member, @91Days.

 

[oono]

Your plan looks good, I admire your courage and we'll be there to listen to you if you need

 

[Cheers]

But can I say goodbye just in case?

I still got like 28h to go so it's a bit early but if you're afraid not to be back by then yes you can

Are you still here? I hope you'll find the peace you're looking for. You sound like the type of person i'd love to hangout with.

Thanks it means a lot!

Your plan looks good, I admire your courage and we'll be there to listen to you if you need

Thanks a bunch for confirming my plan looks well! I'll do my best keeping this thread up until i pass out

 

[Kennish]

I hope you find peace when the time come. Have a safe journey

 

[Cheza_mus]

I think you should use 25g of sn as to the pph

 

[Cheers]

I think you should use 25g of sn as to the pph

Thanks for the suggestion, tbh i don't think it'll make that big a difference both 20g and 25g are huge overkills anyway, i just chose to go with 20 bc i'm rather slender

 

[Chockles]

Hope you find peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans. When it is time to leave I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[bed]

one thing i noticed i guess, is taking your benzo 30mins prior to sn. I'd put it under your tongue and let it dissolve so it reaches peak concentration faster if you aren't already doing so. I wish you the best of luck. I'm sorry life brought you to this point.

 

[aristotle is ok]

Are you still here? I hope you'll find the peace you're looking for. You sound like the type of person i'd love to hangout with.

you have a droll sense of humor.. made me laugh, although I do not doubt your sincerity as well. Too Shay. maybe instead you two can hangout together and become bff. It's not out of normal behavior. I've been to over a thousand AA meetings and it's not at all uncommon to hear how peeps have turned their life around. That's why the Organization has been around since the '40's.

 

[Chisel]

Please excuse me if this come across wrong.
However I do like to hear of people booking hotels to CTB in.
I mean I feel it's extremely unfair on the people that have to find you not to mention the negative impact on the business itself.
I'm not judging just voicing my opinion.
I'll be doing mine at home.
It's still unfair on those that will find me but that's going to family most likely anyway and at best professionals who are trained to deal with these things.
I don't mean to sound critical I just genuinely feel for the people who could be traumatised unnecessarily.
This world dishes out enough trauma we don't need exacerbate it even more.

 

[Tempest]

I admire the soundness of your plan and your courage. Have a peaceful journey.

 

[Cheers]

one thing i noticed i guess, is taking your benzo 30mins prior to sn. I'd put it under your tongue and let it dissolve so it reaches peak concentration faster if you aren't already doing so. I wish you the best of luck. I'm sorry life brought you to this point.

I didn't know about that, thanks for sharing!

 

[bed]

I didn't know about that, thanks for sharing!

no problem. It'll prob not taste that great unlike clonazepam but yeah just let it fully dissolve, you can split them into smaller pieces to dissolve faster.

 

[Cheers]

Please excuse me if this come across wrong.
However I do like to hear of people booking hotels to CTB in.
I mean I feel it's extremely unfair on the people that have to find you not to mention the negative impact on the business itself.
I'm not judging just voicing my opinion.
I'll be doing mine at home.
It's still unfair on those that will find me but that's going to family most likely anyway and at best professionals who are trained to deal with these things.
I don't mean to sound critical I just genuinely feel for the people who could be traumatised unnecessarily.
This world dishes out enough trauma we don't need exacerbate it even more.

You're absolutely right, i just decided that btw finding a stranger's corpse or finding your daughter's dead body the first may be less worse. My parents love me a lot and finding my corpse would most likely destroy and haunt them. Not saying that what I'm doing is right but at least I gave it some thought

no problem. It'll prob not taste that great unlike clonazepam but yeah just let it fully dissolve, you can split them into smaller pieces to dissolve faster.

Probably won't be worse than sn taste-wise, or maybe just a different kind of bad but oh well, thanks for the tips

 

[bed]

You're absolutely right, i just decided that btw finding a stranger's corpse or finding your daughter's dead body the first may be less worse. My parents love me a lot and finding my corpse would most likely destroy and haunt them. Not saying that what I'm doing is right but at least I gave it some thought

Probably won't be worse than sn taste-wise, or maybe just a different kind of bad but oh well, thanks for the tips

yeah, it's just a bitter chemical taste, personally, i don't mind it. Good luck with everything, i hope it goes smoothly. remember you can always change your mind if you have hesitation, sn will always be there.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish you the best and hope you find peace.
I will say goodbye now. I don't know if I will be back later.

 

[ClownMe]

I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[BrokenHopes]

I wish you peace, freedom and a safe journey, in whatever you decide to do.