Dec 4, 2020
hi to whoever is reading this.

i got high the other night and released all of my emotions to this girl that im in love with. basically told her i have a plan to ctb but “im changing”. bahahaha.

i feel like im putting up a facade that promotes mental health and recognizing self sabotage but i dont want to help myself.

i really thought by telling her , i’d want to live longer so i can be with her but i guess i hate myself more than i love her.

i found some of the materials to SN in my house and it made me feel a bit excited.

im tired of being here. the constant thought of CTB every hour of the day is exhausting. i want it to be over with.


Mar 22, 2020
Hell yeah! Thinking of suicide constantly is making us go nuts!!
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