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FatedGirl21

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Jul 13, 2025
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I've idealized for as long as I can remember. Even when it feels like my life has reached some sort of "normalcy", I still find myself back here.
I feel suicide is my fate.. I just haven't gathered the confidence to see it through, but this is the closest I have ever found myself to it.
I'm too coward to hang myself, overdosing is just prone to too much failure and I cannot afford to fail.
I'm contemplating the CO route... Dose myself with some sleeping pills and set alight a bag of charcoal in a little grill in an enclosed and abandoned room we have in the yard. What are my chances of success and if there's any suggestions on how I can refine the process, I am entirely open to them
 
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I've idealized for as long as I can remember. Even when it feels like my life has reached some sort of "normalcy", I still find myself back here.
I feel suicide is my fate.. I just haven't gathered the confidence to see it through, but this is the closest I have ever found myself to it.
I'm too coward to hang myself, overdosing is just prone to too much failure and I cannot afford to fail.
I'm contemplating the CO route... Dose myself with some sleeping pills and set alight a bag of charcoal in a little grill in an enclosed and abandoned room we have in the yard. What are my chances of success and if there's any suggestions on how I can refine the process, I am entirely open to them
If you decide to use coal, you need to light it outside. When it turns white, it stops smoking, then you can use it to get carbon monoxide. If you decide to do this, I hope everything goes smoothly.
 
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Dec 4, 2024
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I'm with you sis. I'm thinking about doing it this weekend. I can go to Walmart and get the supplies, but finding the location and a proper tent scare me 😞
 
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FatedGirl21

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If you decide to use coal, you need to light it outside. When it turns white, it stops smoking, then you can use it to get carbon monoxide. If you decide to do this, I hope everything goes smoothly.
Thank you so much. I haven't gotten around to it yet.. I'm planning for this weekend, my biggest fear is getting to actually doing it then waking up the next morning. I CANNOT afford to fail
I'm with you sis. I'm thinking about doing it this weekend. I can go to Walmart and get the supplies, but finding the location and a proper tent scare me 😞
I totally understand you, I have decided to do it at home. A day where everyone is away so I have no interruptions. I come from a really small town, so there aren't really a lot of places that are deserted where one could pitch a tent and go through with it without someone walking past and noticing.
I wish you all the best and that you finally find peace. I am aiming for this weekend to
 
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