Can't tell anyone how I feel

[Septim]

I was abused as a kid and got into the habit of not showing my emotions when I'm hurting as a defensive thing. My mum bullied me but if she didn't get a reaction she would leave me alone like any bully.

I'm suicidal now and tried to hang myself a couple of times which was much harder than I imagined. I'm looking into the SN method right now but I'd really rather not do it but I can't get better if I can't talk about it but I can't talk about it if I don't get better.

Has anyone been in a similar situation and got out of it?

 

[EGR92]

I've gotten out of it many times but every time i end right back in it again.. its a vicious circle and theres only one way to end that. For me, anyway

 

[Jolene40]

I'm a huge advocate of therapy but it all rests on seeing the right person. I have never been welcome to share my true feelings and emotions with parents as a child. Only all came out once I built a relationship with a good therapist. The right person will help you feel comfy to say everything. May be different in USA where the threat of being reported hangs over your head

 

[BlackPoppet]

I've gotten out of it many times but every time i end right back in it again.. its a vicious circle and theres only one way to end that. For me, anyway

I'm a huge advocate of therapy but it all rests on seeing the right person. I have never been welcome to share my true feelings and emotions with parents as a child. Only all came out once I built a relationship with a good therapist. The right person will help you feel comfy to say everything. May be different in USA where the threat of being reported hangs over your head

I agree!!!

 

[Septim]

Thanks for the replies. I feel like there's no way to deal with it but if I can sort a few things out I can end the pain at least.