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matt6callis

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Oct 28, 2021
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Just eating my last meal before the 12 hour fast. I thought I could make it, but I'm just numb and what little else is too painful to bear.
I just hope no one finds me.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I am sorry that you are suffering so much. I know that it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore of this life. Living is very painful. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
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I hope you got to treat yourself for the last meal, whether or not you could enjoy it much. Best wishes for whatever happens and whatever you decide to do.
 
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matt6callis

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I hope you got to treat yourself for the last meal, whether or not you could enjoy it much. Best wishes for whatever happens and whatever you decide to do.
I hardly touched it tbh!.
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
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Aww too bad. But probably better for making the fast effective.
 
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matt6callis

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I'm so frightened, I actually threw up. Def feel better for it though.
 
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matt6callis

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How are u feeling?

I am miss anxiety, I will be the same on my last day; are u sure of this decisión?
Actually threw up again. I just can't go on like this, I am so paranoid and afraid of everything, I just can't stand it anymore. But very nervous about tomorrow. I can't fail. If I'm found, my landlord will kick me out. I'd probably lose my job too as I'm only a temp.
This really has to work.
 
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Actually threw up again. I just can't go on like this, I am so paranoid and afraid of everything, I just can't stand it anymore. But very nervous about tomorrow. I can't fail. If I'm found, my landlord will kick me out. I'd probably lose my job too as I'm only a temp.
This really has to work.

Do you have benzos? they help you relax a little, I know what you feel, I've been in an anxiety crisis for days, I can barely eat, I only think about ctb, I would also use the SN method, I think you have to trust it and everything will be fine, to unless it's not the right time and maybe it has to be later
 
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matt6callis

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Couldn't sleep a wink last night. Panic attacks early morning. But I have set a time. I'm thinking around 8-9pm tonight. That way, there won't be any unexpected visitors at my house.
 
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Oct 12, 2021
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Couldn't sleep a wink last night. Panic attacks early morning. But I have set a time. I'm thinking around 8-9pm tonight. That way, there won't be any unexpected visitors at my house.
Panick attacks in the morning sucks. I used to have them every morning before Christmas. I think we are more prone to them in the morning because of the cortisol being released in order for us to wake up. I hope you're feeling a little better now that it's not early morning anymore, and I hope you'll get to relax a bit.
 
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