
KuriGohan&Kamehameha
想死不能 - 想活不能
- Nov 23, 2020
- 1,802
A peaceful end is what I wanted but now where I'll be living is uncertain and everything has gone to hell in a handbasket. I loved my partner so much and he has gone and done this to me. Threatening me and then ignoring me, while I am begging and pleading with him to speak to me and not fight with me. 15 messages and still being ignored. No doubt he'll be kicking me out and breaking up with me.
I have NOTHING except a broken body and a broken brain. I try reaching out to people and they all say I just need to deal with living on my own and try to adjust, but I am physically and mentally so disabled, I need PHYSICAL HELP. Why are people so selfish? Why do able bodied Neurotypical people think disabled people can do what they can?
I wake up sick everyday, I'm sick right now and practically writhing in pain as I'm typing this because the accompaniment of fresh wounds and constant aching is beleaguring me horribly. Having worry and stress about what my boyfriend will do is eating away at me and its flaring my IBS up horribly.
Out of desparation I feel like I may have to jump in front of a train, because I cannot live with the threat of homelessness and the guarentee of further suffering hanging over my head everyday. Would it be painful to jump?
I have NOTHING except a broken body and a broken brain. I try reaching out to people and they all say I just need to deal with living on my own and try to adjust, but I am physically and mentally so disabled, I need PHYSICAL HELP. Why are people so selfish? Why do able bodied Neurotypical people think disabled people can do what they can?
I wake up sick everyday, I'm sick right now and practically writhing in pain as I'm typing this because the accompaniment of fresh wounds and constant aching is beleaguring me horribly. Having worry and stress about what my boyfriend will do is eating away at me and its flaring my IBS up horribly.
Out of desparation I feel like I may have to jump in front of a train, because I cannot live with the threat of homelessness and the guarentee of further suffering hanging over my head everyday. Would it be painful to jump?