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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
I can't do it tonight everyone. I was planning on taking my SN at 1 in the morning, but I can't bring myself to do it. I'm afraid that I'd fail and experience the horrendous experiences that a few posters made. They psyched me out. I'm too afraid now. Now I feel stuck in a horrible life. I don't want to live for long. I don't know if I'll attempt in the future but it's got to be soon because my SN is probably already going bad. FUCK!
 
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MidnightDream

MidnightDream

Warlock
Sep 5, 2022
740
For every 1 person that's failed, there's likely 9/10 more (if not more) that have succeeded.
Failure ultimately comes down to
- Not following the regime: Not fasting, not taking correct dosage, etc
- Incorrect product/bad source
- Vomiting before enough has been consumed and not having a second glass prepared
- Not drinking it all at once / dosing it
If you do everything right, chances of failure are pretty slim.

Do with that information what you will, it's entirely your decision, but SN is one of the most foolproof methods out there.
 
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aforestfire

aforestfire

"for truly, i am no longer a part of the world."
Dec 17, 2022
88
it's completely understandable being scared, it seems like most of those threads about sn failure was inconsistent and the only goal was to spread fear. it's horrible that apparently, it's working. sn remains a reliable method, but i can't convince you of that.
i'm sorry you feel stuck, if you go through with it i hope you find peace, and if you decide to live, i wish you the best either way.
 
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Monkeyman

Monkeyman

Member
Dec 27, 2022
46
Which horrendous experiences? Asking honestly because I haven't seen much of the failure threads. From what I've seen, SN is among the methods least likely (if at all) to have some nasty lifelong effect in case of failure.
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
It's ok to be jumpy, but remember that bus will take us to a better place✨

- https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-successful-and-unsuccessful.30211
 
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jessisme

Specialist
Dec 3, 2022
382
I'm scared too.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
I guess your only course of action at this point is to cope with life and try to recover. I've already addressed why those people failed to the point where I am just going to be a broken record, so I have no more to say on the matter.

I wish you all the best <3
 
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almostoutofhere

Living in the past
Dec 27, 2022
163
Have you tried taking any sedatives to help with the si?
 
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LookingOverTheEdge

LookingOverTheEdge

Hello Darkness my old friend
Jul 13, 2020
355
Speaking as one of the 'failures', I can say that the only 'horrendous' part of the experience was that I woke up. Everything else was pretty tolerable in all honesty. Pretty sure for myself that I only failed through taking less than the recommended dose.

Now don't get me wrong, I'd prefer you could turn things around and go on to better things. I wish that for everyone here. But being that I strongly doubt if I can turn things around for myself, I know that's a pretty steep thing to hope for.

What I will tell you is that if and when I decide to make another attempt, I would still go with SN. And having now experienced it firsthand, I have no more fear of the whole thing. Certainly had no intent of scaring anyone else either, just providing an honest account.

I wish you the very best, whatever that may mean for you.
 
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damaged_soul

Student
Jul 30, 2022
199
Ugh I know how you feel. I tried to ctb almost exactly one year ago at 1 am like you and I too chickened out due to horror stories I had heard. Now I'm stuck in a limbo where I really really really want to ctb but am too afraid to do it.
 
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tilly17

Member
Dec 23, 2022
67
I can't do it tonight everyone. I was planning on taking my SN at 1 in the morning, but I can't bring myself to do it. I'm afraid that I'd fail and experience the horrendous experiences that a few posters made. They psyched me out. I'm too afraid now. Now I feel stuck in a horrible life. I don't want to live for long. I don't know if I'll attempt in the future but it's got to be soon because my SN is probably already going bad. FUCK!
The recent posts have psyched me out of fear too, however the most recent I think failed as they sipped the SN.
I'm honestly scared shitless but I just can't endure living this way and am trying to focus on the pain I'll continue to have being much worse than what I'll endure going forth with the SN. I have the worst gag reflex and I fear throwing up and being conscious a long time as sedatives don't work for me…
Any chance you wanna try along with me on Sunday? I've decided I've just got to bite the bullet and just do it !
Speaking as one of the 'failures', I can say that the only 'horrendous' part of the experience was that I woke up. Everything else was pretty tolerable in all honesty. Pretty sure for myself that I only failed through taking less than the recommended dose.

Now don't get me wrong, I'd prefer you could turn things around and go on to better things. I wish that for everyone here. But being that I strongly doubt if I can turn things around for myself, I know that's a pretty steep thing to hope for.

What I will tell you is that if and when I decide to make another attempt, I would still go with SN. And having now experienced it firsthand, I have no more fear of the whole thing. Certainly had no intent of scaring anyone else either, just providing an honest account.

I wish you the very best, whatever that may mean for yo
Speaking as one of the 'failures', I can say that the only 'horrendous' part of the experience was that I woke up. Everything else was pretty tolerable in all honesty. Pretty sure for myself that I only failed through taking less than the recommended dose.

Now don't get me wrong, I'd prefer you could turn things around and go on to better things. I wish that for everyone here. But being that I strongly doubt if I can turn things around for myself, I know that's a pretty steep thing to hope for.

What I will tell you is that if and when I decide to make another attempt, I would still go with SN. And having now experienced it firsthand, I have no more fear of the whole thing. Certainly had no intent of scaring anyone else either, just providing an honest account.

I wish you the very best, whatever that may mean for you.
Do you think that you will try again? With SN? How much did you take? How long did you take to lose consciousness?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,293
After all SN is a reliable method as so many have succeeded with it and I consider those who have it by their side right now as being fortunate. But it must be a difficult situation to be in, having all those fears and as a result feeling trapped here. The thought of ctb failing certainly is terrifying but I do believe that SN will succeed if the correct regime is followed, as it's a poison after all. I envy all the people who have died this way, but I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.
 
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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
I guess your only course of action at this point is to cope with life and try to recover. I've already addressed why those people failed to the point where I am just going to be a broken record, so I have no more to say on the matter.

I wish you all the best <3
I know you've been good at counteracting the fear. It must be frustrating because I sound like a broken record. Eventually, I will attempt to ctb, I just don't know when.

Have you tried taking any sedatives to help with the si?
The only thing I have to make me feel better is Kratom. I don't have access to benzos or any of that, just Kratom and Olanzapine (for vomiting). I'm supposed to be quitting the kratom but I can't. It's the only thing that lifts my head for an hour.
Speaking as one of the 'failures', I can say that the only 'horrendous' part of the experience was that I woke up. Everything else was pretty tolerable in all honesty. Pretty sure for myself that I only failed through taking less than the recommended dose.

Now don't get me wrong, I'd prefer you could turn things around and go on to better things. I wish that for everyone here. But being that I strongly doubt if I can turn things around for myself, I know that's a pretty steep thing to hope for.

What I will tell you is that if and when I decide to make another attempt, I would still go with SN. And having now experienced it firsthand, I have no more fear of the whole thing. Certainly had no intent of scaring anyone else either, just providing an honest account.

I wish you the very best, whatever that may mean for you.
Your failure was relatively minor compared to the other horror stories. Thank you for clarifying that it wasn't that bad. It helps. Eventually I am going to make my attempt but I just hope my SN is still as pure as it was when I bought it.
The recent posts have psyched me out of fear too, however the most recent I think failed as they sipped the SN.
I'm honestly scared shitless but I just can't endure living this way and am trying to focus on the pain I'll continue to have being much worse than what I'll endure going forth with the SN. I have the worst gag reflex and I fear throwing up and being conscious a long time as sedatives don't work for me…
Any chance you wanna try along with me on Sunday? I've decided I've just got to bite the bullet and just do it !


Do you think that you will try again? With SN? How much did you take? How long did you take to lose consciousness?
I think I'll make my attempt in the beginning in february. I'm worried my SN has lost it's potency. From what I read and researched, it should have a shelf life of 3 years, but other users are claiming that it loses half its potency in 3 months and continues to decline from there. I really hope not.
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
I know you've been good at counteracting the fear. It must be frustrating because I sound like a broken record. Eventually, I will attempt to ctb, I just don't know when.
The only thing frustrating is (and it's not just you) that people are letting 2 random's who posted threads and were dubious at best making people second guess and even throw out their sn.
 
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littlelady774

littlelady774

running on empty
Dec 20, 2018
708
I think I'll make my attempt in the beginning in february. I'm worried my SN has lost it's potency. From what I read and researched, it should have a shelf life of 3 years, but other users are claiming that it loses half its potency in 3 months and continues to decline from there. I really hope not.
I'm pretty sure it will last indefinitely if stored properly and left unopened. I have SN from 4 years ago and plan to use it
 
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LookingOverTheEdge

LookingOverTheEdge

Hello Darkness my old friend
Jul 13, 2020
355
The only thing frustrating is (and it's not just you) that people are letting 2 random's who posted threads and were dubious at best making people second guess and even throw out their sn.
I sound like a broken record myself, and I don't think you're referring to me, but I want to just say again that this was never the intent of my post, quite the opposite in fact.

I'm very much pro choice, and though I genuinely wish that everybody on here could turn things around and have a great life, because I'm sure most of us deserve it, I would never disrespect someone's choices or invalidate their feelings. Who the hell am I or anyone else to tell a person what they feel or decide to do with their life.

I don't honestly know if the other posts were attempting to scaremonger, and I wouldn't like to accuse anyone of such. But I do feel bad if it's put more distress on to people having a hard enough time already. It's a real balancing act being on here sometimes
 
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WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
I sound like a broken record myself, and I don't think you're referring to me, but I want to just say again that this was never the intent of my post, quite the opposite in fact.

I'm very much pro choice, and though I genuinely wish that everybody on here could turn things around and have a great life, because I'm sure most of us deserve it, I would never disrespect someone's choices or invalidate their feelings. Who the hell am I or anyone else to tell a person what they feel or decide to do with their life.

I don't honestly know if the other posts were attempting to scaremonger, and I wouldn't like to accuse anyone of such. But I do feel bad if it's put more distress on to people having a hard enough time already. It's a real balancing act being on here sometimes
Definitely not referring to you. I am referring to InternetLeg and someone else who's username I forgot (I havent really interacted with them on their thread so that's probably why I don't remember it).

Hopefully you didn't take offense to what I said above with that in mind.
 
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Wasabi

Wasabi

Member
Sep 9, 2022
54
Speaking as one of the 'failures', I can say that the only 'horrendous' part of the experience was that I woke up. Everything else was pretty tolerable in all honesty. Pretty sure for myself that I only failed through taking less than the recommended dose.

Now don't get me wrong, I'd prefer you could turn things around and go on to better things. I wish that for everyone here. But being that I strongly doubt if I can turn things around for myself, I know that's a pretty steep thing to hope for.

What I will tell you is that if and when I decide to make another attempt, I would still go with SN. And having now experienced it firsthand, I have no more fear of the whole thing. Certainly had no intent of scaring anyone else either, just providing an honest account.

I wish you the very best, whatever that may mean for you.
I just want to say that I enjoy reading your comments. You sound like a kind soul.
 
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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
512
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/video-showing-effects-of-hypoxia.106223/

This post made me more calm about it
 
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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/video-showing-effects-of-hypoxia.106223/

This post made me more calm about it
Yes me too. That's more like what I expect of it to do. For us the symptoms would get worse so I expect to have some blurred vision, ears popping, hearing fading in and out. The brain shutting down. None of that freaks me out to be honest.
 
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LookingOverTheEdge

LookingOverTheEdge

Hello Darkness my old friend
Jul 13, 2020
355
Definitely not referring to you. I am referring to InternetLeg and someone else who's username I forgot (I havent really interacted with them on their thread so that's probably why I don't remember it).

Hopefully you didn't take offense to what I said above with that in mind.
Not in the slightest :).
I just want to say that I enjoy reading your comments. You sound like a kind soul.
That's very kind of you to say. Thank you very much. I'd like you to know that I've been having a hard day today, had some bad news that hit me hard, and that's actually just put a smile on my face.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
Not in the slightest :).

That's very kind of you to say. Thank you very much. I'd like you to know that I've been having a hard day today, had some bad news that hit me hard, and that's actually just put a smile on my face.
I am sorry that you had bad news today. I hope the rest of your day/night goes better.
 
LookingOverTheEdge

LookingOverTheEdge

Hello Darkness my old friend
Jul 13, 2020
355
I am sorry that you had bad news today. I hope the rest of your day/night goes better.
Thanks. I'm spending the night alone watching Netflix. Not really feeling festive. But hey ho, we're doing our best right.
 
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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
Thanks. I'm spending the night alone watching Netflix. Not really feeling festive. But hey ho, we're doing our best right.
I'm spending the night home alone too. I could've went to my cousin's but I just wanted to stay home and veg. I'm actually watching a Netflix show called, "Rise of Empires: The Ottoman".
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
Well you and I have the same brand sn so if you don't see me back on after next weekend you'll know it worked.
 
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Wasabi

Wasabi

Member
Sep 9, 2022
54
Not in the slightest :).

That's very kind of you to say. Thank you very much. I'd like you to know that I've been having a hard day today, had some bad news that hit me hard, and that's actually just put a smile on my face.
I'm sorry... May I know what happened to you?
 

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