can't function properly without my friend

[404]

so much pain everyday and i don't know how to relieve it without them
the people im with irl can't understand me one bit and it is so painful

i can't live like this it's so painful without them
i just want to see them again why can't people understand that

 

[angel31]

Hey im so sorry this is happening to u, if u want to chat a bit u can just PM me <3
Sending u love and hugs

 

[hamvil]

I can relate with you, I also miss a friend of mine. She won't talk with me because of some things I wrote and said, I tried to apologize in all possible ways but she basically blocked me on every possible social media. I also would like to just chat with her again.

 

[day]

I'm so attached to one friend and tell him everything. I'm sure he hates me at this point but he's my only comfort in life outside of SH.

 

[90starve]

i know how you feel - but sometimes we are forced to cut ties. there's no easy way to get over a severed friendship, but time heals most wounds <3

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I'm so attached to one friend and tell him everything. I'm sure he hates me at this point but he's my only comfort in life outside of SH.

What did you do to him for him to hate you ??!

so much pain everyday and i don't know how to relieve it without them
the people im with irl can't understand me one bit and it is so painful

i can't live like this it's so painful without them
i just want to see them again why can't people understand that

You realise you don't been friends to function properly right??

 

[day]

What did you do to him for him to hate you ??!

Trauma dump on him all the time and just yesterday exposed my plans to CTB in September and how I fantasized about being raped and killed by men I'd see while out at the liquor store.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

Trauma dump on him all the time and just yesterday exposed my plans to CTB in September and how I fantasized about being raped and killed by men I'd see while out at the liquor store.

Oh oh oh I see, was he one of those who would also come to you with his problems or ask you for money? Was he one of those would sing how he wishes you were born as his sibling and how he would post your pictures on his social media proclaiming his love for you?

If he is like they then I can understand why he would hate you because you would have blocked him right? Or maybe I'm just talking for my case or was he just a poor thing that was lied to over false accusations that he had to do that?!

If that's correct then I pity him as well as he is easily gullible.

 

[day]

Oh oh oh I see, was he one of those who would also come to you with his problems or ask you for money? Was he one of those would sing how he wishes you were born as his sibling and how he would post your pictures on his social media proclaiming his love for you?

If he is like they then I can understand why he would hate you because you would have blocked him right? Or maybe I'm just talking for my case or was he just a poor thing that was lied to over false accusations that he had to do that?!

If that's correct then I pity him as well as he is easily gullible.

No he's none of that. Just someone who cares but has seen my decline over the past 5 years.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

No he's none of that. Just someone who cares but has seen my decline over the past 5 years.

Sorry if he cares then why does he hates you?

Surely you don't hate someone that you care for, I don't hate anyone that I care for period, I can only hate someone that has wronged me in a major way.

 

[day]

Sorry if he cares then why does he hates you?

Surely you don't hate someone that you care for, I don't hate anyone that I care for period, I can only hate someone that has wronged me in a major way.

I can't be certain only sure of it. I see no reason for him to value me when all I do is ruin my life then cry to him about it like I even care.

Maybe I'm just projecting.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I can't be certain only sure of it. I see no reason for him to value me when all I do is ruin my life then cry to him about it like I even care.

Maybe I'm just projecting.

How did you ruin your life or was it those people like my mum referred to as a devil that would ruin your life. Was he the one who reached out to you and also told you a whole lot of his own problems to you.

If it is as you say it is then I can understand and if he didn't care then I'm sure he would have blocked you or not even named his child after you like what this guy did….

 

[The anhedonic one]

I live in UK and was very close with a woman from Italy.
She is also suicidal like me, and we would talk everyday, several times a day.
Unfortunately She is also a borderline like me and She ended up pushing me away.
Borderlines are well known for pushing people away due to things like fear of abandonment.
I haven't heard from her in 6 days and it's killing me.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be awful and hard to deal with what you are going through, there really is too much suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think some people just can't handle being told such devastating (for them) news. It's not to criticize you by the way. It's desperately lonely being suicidal. He clearly gave you signs that you could tell him anything.

I guess it might be a kind of selfish defence mechanism. When we make it apparent that we might leave someone- or, might put ourselves in a horribly dangerous scenario- I don't know- maybe they flip! I guess most people have a natural instinct to want to protect, help and even 'save' their friends. Maybe when it becomes apparent we may just act on our own and effectively abandon them and disregard what they feel about us- maybe that's just crushing and they can't take it.

It's a different scenario but with a very good friend of mine- when they told me they were moving, I found it hard to cope with. Like OF COURSE- I didn't really want to stop them. I knew it was going to be good for them to move on with their life. But selfishly- it hurt. I'd been there so much for them. It's embarassing to admit and terribly immature- but I started to distance myself from them before they left- to kind of protect myself- get myself used to the idea they wouldn't be there anymore. Perhaps what your friend is doing is similar- trying to protect himself... I could be wrong and projecting of course...