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EyesOfNight

EyesOfNight

the night will be eternal
Feb 2, 2024
371
Here I was just rotting everyday, slowly planning to CTB and now all of a sudden everyone is making demands.
"You have to get treatment", "You have to get a job" fucking hell just leave me the fuck alone.
It's slowly becoming too risky to keep living. I could lose my freedom any moment if I'm not careful.
I can't do anything without people making it their business. And the worst part is, I have to comply otherwise I will loose the roofe over my head and the cash that barely allows me to get resources need for future CTB plans.
I should just down the SN and get it over with.
It's so frustrating!
 
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real human being

real human being

full of broken thoughts
Jan 28, 2022
202
Yeah I also wish the world would just leave me alone. I don't have the energy to study or work, I don't have the energy to communicate with and please people, I don't have the energy to try to get better somehow and I've been trying for so long. I don't even have the energy to do things I might enjoy, though there aren't a lot of things like that. I just want to at least be left alone but this world is cruel and everything just keeps getting worse and more painful.
 
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martinso67

All human rights are important
Feb 5, 2021
189
Yeah, that's unfair. Life is getting too overwhelming and controlling.
Humans are treated as cattle. THE average HUMAN is actually narcissistic and sick. They force everyone to be something they are not. Animals lick cats are much more conscious beings than humans or any modern person.

These animals like cats (and other animals) have a real individuality and personality. And are not sheep cattle like the average modern human.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Tortured by evil humans
Sep 24, 2020
35,213
I understand why you'd feel so frustrated by that, it's dreadful to me how many humans just create more suffering. But anyway I hope that you find peace eventually.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,422
I'm sorry to hear that. I'm the same situation. I basically have to do whatever my mom tells me to, otherwise she threatens to kick me out. I have to comply with her demands because she basically gave me a blank cheque and the alternative is worse. I have no choice but to agree and do what she says. It's the lesser of two evils. I wish that people were more understanding and would not pressure you to get a job when you're already struggling and not okay. I just wish that I could NEET in peace and be free from demands
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,198
Same
I have to go to work and be around people tomorrow. I would rather lay down in my bed and rot
 
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sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,422
Same
I have to go to work and be around people tomorrow. I would rather lay down in my bed and rot
Going to work and being around people sounds like torture
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,198
Going to work and being around people sounds like torture
It literally is, especially with my agoraphobia, anxiery, dislike of society. Not to mention it can get physically exhausting too
 
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sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,422
Yeah, that's unfair. Life is getting too overwhelming and controlling.
Humans are treated as cattle. THE average HUMAN is actually narcissistic and sick. They force everyone to be something they are not. Animals lick cats are much more conscious beings than humans or any modern person.

These animals like cats (and other animals) have a real individuality and personality. And are not sheep cattle like the average modern human.
Humans *are* treated as cattle. We're all just human capital and slaves to the system. They force us all to conform to the norm and adhere to NT standards
It literally is, especially with my agoraphobia, anxiery, dislike of society. Not to mention it can get physically exhausting too
It makes me physically exhausted to be around people. It drains my energy and makes me tired. I think that's why I've become schizoid and NEET. I just want to be alone
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,198
Humans *are* treated as cattle. We're all just human capital and slaves to the system. They force us all to conform to the norm and adhere to NT standards

It makes me physically exhausted to be around people. It drains my energy and makes me tired. I think that's why I've become schizoid and NEET
Yeah humans suck. I try to avoid crowds and people whenever possible. I would only go for walks in the park when its really dark and empty. Same with gym, sometimes i go when its really early when there is barely any one.
Luckily my parents do most my shopping, but if i do buy something i would buy it online

Everytime i am around strangers I feel anxious, depressed and a whole range of negative emotions as well as feeling exhausted
 
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EyesOfNight

EyesOfNight

the night will be eternal
Feb 2, 2024
371
Yeah I also wish the world would just leave me alone. I don't have the energy to study or work, I don't have the energy to communicate with and please people, I don't have the energy to try to get better somehow and I've been trying for so long. I don't even have the energy to do things I might enjoy, though there aren't a lot of things like that. I just want to at least be left alone but this world is cruel and everything just keeps getting worse and more painful.
I feel exactly the same. It sucks so much for people like us
Humans are treated as cattle.
Even worse. Cattle lives imprisoned while food and shelter are provided until they get executed. We have to work for shelter food and execution. If we do something that the government doesn't like then we live like cattle except in some places where prison labour is a thing.
I understand why you'd feel so frustrated by that, it's dreadful to me how many humans just create more suffering. But anyway I hope that you find peace eventually.
Thank you. I appreciate it.
I'm sorry to hear that. I'm the same situation. I basically have to do whatever my mom tells me, otherwise she threatens to kick me out. I have to comply with her demands because she basically gave me a blank cheque, and the alternative is worse. I have no choice but to agree and do what she says. It's the lesser of two evils. I wish that people were more understanding and would not pressure you to get a job when you're already struggling and not okay. I just wish that I could NEET in peace and be free from demands
I know. I enjoy reading some of your threads. It makes me feel like I'm not crazy and alone in this.
It sucks so much to be in a position like us.
Same
I have to go to work and be around people tomorrow. I would rather lay down in my bed and rot
It's so disgusting how humans not only need to work but also have to socialise/please others to even be welcomed into slavery and not thrown out.
 
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Optimu$

Optimu$

Death Is Non Negotiable
May 10, 2024
87
@EyesOfNight Sounds to me like people around you are just seeing what they want to see and not what they need to see. Sorry you're having to go through this. May I ask what method you're gathering/saving for?
 
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EyesOfNight

the night will be eternal
Feb 2, 2024
371
@EyesOfNight Sounds to me like people around you are just seeing what they want to see and not what they need to see. Sorry you're having to go through this. May I ask what method you're gathering/saving for?
It's all just personal bias and indoctrination. It doesn't matter what a person sees. They will always shape it to fit their own beliefs.
I prefer not to say, sorry.
 
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