Catching_the_bus
She's longing for eternal sleep
- Feb 26, 2023
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Today is one of my really bad days.... The issue is that I have an appointment with my psychiatrist today but I don't even have the energy to get out of bed... I can't cancel the appointment for risk of hospitalization... If I can't manage to get out of bed and make it to this appointment today then he's going to call the police for a wellness check and I'm screwed... Why does the mental health system have to make life even more excruciating... I just want to sleep all day.... I feel so stuck... If I cancel he will have me involuntarily hospitalized... If I don't show up he will have the police banging on my door and I could end up hospitalized... Right now we are doing WEEKLY appointments instead of monthly because it was the only way I was able to escape being hospitalized... But I just don't have the energy... I want to be left alone.. he thinks he's "helping me" but he's making everything worse... I am just so exhausted....