So basically I'm gonna CTB in a month.
My plan was to always go out in secluded nature for many reasons;
I would not traumatise anyone finding a body.
I could return to the earth as naturally as possible.
I am a private person and do not want to be seen or found.
I would not want my family to have to identify my body and remember me that way.
I do not want to have the police involved, treating me as a statistic.
I could hopefully slip away with less shock value on others and fade out.
However…
After much research, I've realised this might be counter intuitive and cause police to investigate my whole life. Including search history or a search party or community announcements. I planned on leaving a note but I am unsure if this will stop them and others trying to locate a body??? It will be obvious as a suicide from closing all my accounts etc. Does anyone know if police try to locate a body even if a suicide note is left saying not to bother looking for me?
I dug a grave to try hide my body but it would be worse if I'm eventually found only weeks or months later decomposing with maggots in my eyes.
It's hard to find information but I'm worried they'll use cadaver dogs to locate my remains and not respect my wishes to not be found.
I also understand without a body, it makes it difficult for family to get a death certificate for administrative stuff.
I also read studies that the grief becomes delayed and more complex when there is no closure from a body.
I just don't want to have to deal with the world, in life or death. Being even remotely in the spotlight terrifies me. I don't want my life dissected and want to just simply vanish as if I never existed.
I'm so anxious and can't decide whether to elaborately try to plan hiding my body with delayed email for family, or to just die in my car with a delayed email for police and get it over with. I understand they appoint someone to deal with family more sensitively and help guide them through the process.
I know I won't be here but it still makes me really worried. I def don't want to become news or listed publicly as a missing person. I don't want to be searched for even if I leave a note that im gone. But on the other hand I want to minimise grief and give closure to family… will they have to identify the body? Maybe I'm just being too vein to be seen dead.
I could easily go a month unoticed. I've pushed everyone away and don't speak to many people these days
Is anyone in a similar position or know information about missing body process when it is clearly a suicide?
Thanks
My plan was to always go out in secluded nature for many reasons;
I would not traumatise anyone finding a body.
I could return to the earth as naturally as possible.
I am a private person and do not want to be seen or found.
I would not want my family to have to identify my body and remember me that way.
I do not want to have the police involved, treating me as a statistic.
I could hopefully slip away with less shock value on others and fade out.
However…
After much research, I've realised this might be counter intuitive and cause police to investigate my whole life. Including search history or a search party or community announcements. I planned on leaving a note but I am unsure if this will stop them and others trying to locate a body??? It will be obvious as a suicide from closing all my accounts etc. Does anyone know if police try to locate a body even if a suicide note is left saying not to bother looking for me?
I dug a grave to try hide my body but it would be worse if I'm eventually found only weeks or months later decomposing with maggots in my eyes.
It's hard to find information but I'm worried they'll use cadaver dogs to locate my remains and not respect my wishes to not be found.
I also understand without a body, it makes it difficult for family to get a death certificate for administrative stuff.
I also read studies that the grief becomes delayed and more complex when there is no closure from a body.
I just don't want to have to deal with the world, in life or death. Being even remotely in the spotlight terrifies me. I don't want my life dissected and want to just simply vanish as if I never existed.
I'm so anxious and can't decide whether to elaborately try to plan hiding my body with delayed email for family, or to just die in my car with a delayed email for police and get it over with. I understand they appoint someone to deal with family more sensitively and help guide them through the process.
I know I won't be here but it still makes me really worried. I def don't want to become news or listed publicly as a missing person. I don't want to be searched for even if I leave a note that im gone. But on the other hand I want to minimise grief and give closure to family… will they have to identify the body? Maybe I'm just being too vein to be seen dead.
I could easily go a month unoticed. I've pushed everyone away and don't speak to many people these days
Is anyone in a similar position or know information about missing body process when it is clearly a suicide?
Thanks
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